Hey! I'm new and not really sure how all this works...

[luckygrl4]

I am looking for help and guidance. I am a 30-year-old female with chronic pain for 8 years (as of yesterday). Before that I had never done any drug, but now I am addicted to my narcotics. Within the last 8 years I've tried almost every drug and about 4 years ago I started to snort my medication. I'm not sure what happened in the last month, but I came to a realization that I want to better myself and my life. If possible, I am trying to get off my narcotics (fentanyl 100mcg and dilaudid 4mg - 8 a day) and see if I can manage the pain on my own or not. I started slowly detoxing since Friday (July 3rd) and I'm doing good so far. The problem I'm finding out is the snorting. For me it could be any drug, the satisfaction of crushing pills and the action of snorting mainly calms me way more than I feel relief of the medication, almost like a cigarette to a smoker. I honestly feel this is the right time in my life to quit, I have amazing support, but I really don't know how to give up snorting and go back to just swallowing a pill. Does anyone have any advice?

 

[Smoky]

Hi,
Welcome to Bluelight !
I snorted pills for some time myself. I completely understand where you are coming from. Studies show just the action of preparing to get high releases endorphins in the brain prior to actual ingestion. Also, it's difficult to wait for the pill to kick in when taking orally, even though bioavailability is better when taken orally and also stronger.
Here is the The Opioid Withdrawal Megathread and FAQ for starters. Have you considered suboxone at all? If even to take briefly through the withdrawal period?