kenzay
Greenlighter
To the lucky ones about to read something I spent my lovely time on,
Hey
Honestly, I am on Adderall (that is prescribed to me, thank u) and it is 3:26am. Currently, I am regretting my decision to stay up this late, however, it is nothing new.
I am writing this because I received my first notification immediately after I signed up, so I got excited and opened it. One of the demands/wishes/requests/stipulations was to come to the "New Member Introductions Forum" and introduce myself. So here I am!!!
To continue on this streak of honesty I have got going on here, I would consider myself to be procrastinating. I should be doing physics. Have I been reading Stephen Hawking's A Brief History of Time for the past maybe five hours? Yes. I did not come here for praise on such a great, advanced read... my sexy physics teacher fills my head with that praise enough. (And frankly, I do not like that kind of flattery.) I just like conversing with other people. Preferably face to face because I have tend to have a lot to say, and typing or texting is a chore. However, it is the differing perspectives I seek. (Hahaha I know I do not mean to sound like a know-it-all snob, but I am grounded for eternity basically damned to hell, so all I do is read. Therefore, this is how I speak now. For example, have you seen a movie set in the 19th century? Pride and Prejudice, Sweeney Todd, Lincoln, etc. I sound like those people, but I imagine with a stronger British accent and just better ya know %).) Ok I am not saying I am better than Abraham Lincoln btw but he was not a Brit - Tgod.
Anywayssss, I seek differing perspectives and new outlooks. The way other people view situations fascinates me, and I learn so much from it. It seriously amazes me hearing some people's adversities they have had to face in life and how they overcame them. Or possibly helping someone who is going through something and they cannot quite find their way out. Which is me right now by the way lol. But you could probably find me talking to Robert in the BP gas station or Traci at Barnes and Noble or Dimitri&Manny at WestO Vapes or Kenny at West Lanes Bowling who just got his last championship ring for being so damn good at bowling. Because anywhere I go now, I have to learn about that person in some way.
I am 18 years old and I just had this epiphany of reaching out to people I never would have in the past. Over the span of a year and a half (here comes the honesty again srry need to get it out, do not want sympathy - u know me) I have been diagnosed with major depression, anxiety and stress disorder, I have Adhd, and I was raped about two months ago by a 32 year old man. With everything in the news I did not think that is what happened. You know I still to an extent, think it is my fault for getting drunk and leaving my friends to go to this after party. However, I told my therapist about my drunken and forgotten night... that is when realization hit me.
So of course first came the sarcasm and jokes because that is just my personality, me trying to cope. However, I think one day it hit me. I was fed up with all the nightmares I would have every single night that would wake me and my family up due to my screaming. Which later led to me being prescribed sleep medication, I later tried to overdose on. So I still have nightmares because I cannot take that medicine anymore. One day I think life slapped me in the face because I was confronted with the fact that I could no longer stay in bed all day and sleep... I had to go to school and face the 40 days I missed. Over 40 freaking days. There is around maybe 80 days in a semester. Luckily, I am literate and I just found out I am graduating. And due to my personable trait, my teachers like me, so they helped a long the way
That is why currently I am procrastinating teaching myself the whole first semester of physics!!! (Yes I am reading Hawking for pleasure, so yes it is an attainable goal to learn this whole class) I just love to procrastinate. And if typing this means I will get to meet new people then I am super excited.
So please tell me your thoughts about the universe or the constitution/politics! However, keep it civil because I do not tolerate otherwise and I do not feel like proving some1 wrong 2night and making them rethink everything bc I am great at arguing (Only time I will be cocky maybe):D Or tell me ur story about ur life or ask me questions or no one read this at all because I think I just wrote a freaking book and I am so sorry and I probably would not even read this, yes I would. But may I remind you I am on Adderall. <---(Prescription) or talk to me about any drugs bc.... I am grounded
Hey
Honestly, I am on Adderall (that is prescribed to me, thank u) and it is 3:26am. Currently, I am regretting my decision to stay up this late, however, it is nothing new.
I am writing this because I received my first notification immediately after I signed up, so I got excited and opened it. One of the demands/wishes/requests/stipulations was to come to the "New Member Introductions Forum" and introduce myself. So here I am!!!
To continue on this streak of honesty I have got going on here, I would consider myself to be procrastinating. I should be doing physics. Have I been reading Stephen Hawking's A Brief History of Time for the past maybe five hours? Yes. I did not come here for praise on such a great, advanced read... my sexy physics teacher fills my head with that praise enough. (And frankly, I do not like that kind of flattery.) I just like conversing with other people. Preferably face to face because I have tend to have a lot to say, and typing or texting is a chore. However, it is the differing perspectives I seek. (Hahaha I know I do not mean to sound like a know-it-all snob, but I am grounded for eternity basically damned to hell, so all I do is read. Therefore, this is how I speak now. For example, have you seen a movie set in the 19th century? Pride and Prejudice, Sweeney Todd, Lincoln, etc. I sound like those people, but I imagine with a stronger British accent and just better ya know %).) Ok I am not saying I am better than Abraham Lincoln btw but he was not a Brit - Tgod.
Anywayssss, I seek differing perspectives and new outlooks. The way other people view situations fascinates me, and I learn so much from it. It seriously amazes me hearing some people's adversities they have had to face in life and how they overcame them. Or possibly helping someone who is going through something and they cannot quite find their way out. Which is me right now by the way lol. But you could probably find me talking to Robert in the BP gas station or Traci at Barnes and Noble or Dimitri&Manny at WestO Vapes or Kenny at West Lanes Bowling who just got his last championship ring for being so damn good at bowling. Because anywhere I go now, I have to learn about that person in some way.
I am 18 years old and I just had this epiphany of reaching out to people I never would have in the past. Over the span of a year and a half (here comes the honesty again srry need to get it out, do not want sympathy - u know me) I have been diagnosed with major depression, anxiety and stress disorder, I have Adhd, and I was raped about two months ago by a 32 year old man. With everything in the news I did not think that is what happened. You know I still to an extent, think it is my fault for getting drunk and leaving my friends to go to this after party. However, I told my therapist about my drunken and forgotten night... that is when realization hit me.
So of course first came the sarcasm and jokes because that is just my personality, me trying to cope. However, I think one day it hit me. I was fed up with all the nightmares I would have every single night that would wake me and my family up due to my screaming. Which later led to me being prescribed sleep medication, I later tried to overdose on. So I still have nightmares because I cannot take that medicine anymore. One day I think life slapped me in the face because I was confronted with the fact that I could no longer stay in bed all day and sleep... I had to go to school and face the 40 days I missed. Over 40 freaking days. There is around maybe 80 days in a semester. Luckily, I am literate and I just found out I am graduating. And due to my personable trait, my teachers like me, so they helped a long the way
That is why currently I am procrastinating teaching myself the whole first semester of physics!!! (Yes I am reading Hawking for pleasure, so yes it is an attainable goal to learn this whole class) I just love to procrastinate. And if typing this means I will get to meet new people then I am super excited.
So please tell me your thoughts about the universe or the constitution/politics! However, keep it civil because I do not tolerate otherwise and I do not feel like proving some1 wrong 2night and making them rethink everything bc I am great at arguing (Only time I will be cocky maybe):D Or tell me ur story about ur life or ask me questions or no one read this at all because I think I just wrote a freaking book and I am so sorry and I probably would not even read this, yes I would. But may I remind you I am on Adderall. <---(Prescription) or talk to me about any drugs bc.... I am grounded
