wine&freedom
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Nov 9, 2012
- Messages
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Hey, so as the title indicates, I'm a smack user, and also into punk rock. I've been lurking around on Bluelight for a while, but have been struck by the urge to be more active in this community, share advice where possible, and hopefully get help for myself, too.
I started using painkillers about eight years ago, had a pretty nice prescription for awhile last year, and then graduated to the IV league this past autumn. At first it was just wonderful- it's hard to describe it, but if you've been there, you know what I mean. It's like a whole new world, or like a new light is being cast over everything. Compared to how expensive prescription pills are (when you don't have a prescription, at least, haha), H seems so cheap. It's like joining a secret society, and I felt a closer bond with my friends who use- we'd enjoy this exquisite secret together, and also look out for one another. People talk about it killing your libido, but goddamn, I've had some fantastic sex while high. Then, just like with pills, there was that one weekend when I just kept saying "ah, what the hell, I'll have another..." and after a few days I was stuck with a "morphine metabolism," as Burroughs dubbed it.
In the past, I've broken my physical addiction to pills using the loperamide trick, but the withdrawals I get from smack are a whole different animal, and loperamide doesn't seem to dissuade it. I'm hoping people in this community have some resources they can share, and point me in the direction of free or low-cost treatment to help me kick. Tips on tapering, home remedies, and other advice would be cool, too. I'm also looking forward to swapping stories and just being able to talk openly about stuff.
And now, I leave you with some words that rhyme with junk that are pretty great- besides punk, you've got skunk, clunk, funk, gunk, chunk, hunk, dunk, bunk, sunk and thunk.
I started using painkillers about eight years ago, had a pretty nice prescription for awhile last year, and then graduated to the IV league this past autumn. At first it was just wonderful- it's hard to describe it, but if you've been there, you know what I mean. It's like a whole new world, or like a new light is being cast over everything. Compared to how expensive prescription pills are (when you don't have a prescription, at least, haha), H seems so cheap. It's like joining a secret society, and I felt a closer bond with my friends who use- we'd enjoy this exquisite secret together, and also look out for one another. People talk about it killing your libido, but goddamn, I've had some fantastic sex while high. Then, just like with pills, there was that one weekend when I just kept saying "ah, what the hell, I'll have another..." and after a few days I was stuck with a "morphine metabolism," as Burroughs dubbed it.
In the past, I've broken my physical addiction to pills using the loperamide trick, but the withdrawals I get from smack are a whole different animal, and loperamide doesn't seem to dissuade it. I'm hoping people in this community have some resources they can share, and point me in the direction of free or low-cost treatment to help me kick. Tips on tapering, home remedies, and other advice would be cool, too. I'm also looking forward to swapping stories and just being able to talk openly about stuff.
And now, I leave you with some words that rhyme with junk that are pretty great- besides punk, you've got skunk, clunk, funk, gunk, chunk, hunk, dunk, bunk, sunk and thunk.
