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any hallucinogen will make you feel great for me for about a week.... until u get mad again then all that peace and love goes out the damn window. I'm telling you man we are headed to a world full of depression i can feel it in my soul my it has to happen for us to appreciate what we have to appreciate each other even tho we are all one and this is why you see people who are really smart or took way to much acid i saw things that i thought u could never see. I saw that everything has its reasons i was sitting in donald trumps office like i was his consciencess i was him know knowing i was just seeing from above listening to his thoughts and god do i wish i remembered what the hell he was thinking but i think he was making a huge decision. this was 5 years ago my second trip ever took 6 or 7 maybe 8 hits (i know excessive but the person who donated it to me told me this was fine to take...and obviously not i saw all lives lived in milliseconds i saw how it began but couldn't see how it ended and then i got a note book to try and write these amazing visuals i was having and literally that acid would not allow me to right the ending of our story its like i wasn't ready for it ...its what i hear from a lot of folks mushrooms is for play acid is for teaching and boy did it teach me. i understand now why they don't want it in the hands of common folks its may just drive you insane or it may make you the next Bill Gates some people say seeing that beautiful beach in santo domingo was life changing and i envy them yet feel bad for them. i tripped on acid in d.r it was ok then the anxiety kicked in and i just couldn't take the sweaty palms sweaty feet i just want to get in my boxer and lay down. oh and did i mention i went with a bunch of friends who are regular trippers like weekly trippers handled it like G.s while me a mans man couldn't take it..i wish i had a colonzapan with me that day cause i would have bin just fine. i find that when i take an anxiety pill before tripping the trip is always good cause the onset doesn't happen but regardless stayed at the beach saw the pink sand very finely it almost looked like my skin and the texture of my skin was of the sand this is where the overwhelming feeling started to set in but i tried to ignore it and it worked for a bit so i for a while swam with my buddy who has an extreme energy about him like overwhelming extreme they got clapped out the dinner room at one point i had left minutes before that. momma is good she protects me from getting in pointless arguments with pointless people who don't know shit about life or what it is to truly feel love for your neighbor or a random person walking down the street. granted i had to leave he was being so loud and just being himself on vacation i found it so disrespectful them clapping them out the room like that if only they new the person he was and how a friend like that takes you out your element and its beautiful when you feel comfort within strangers and we are on vacation let everyone act and feel what ever way they wanna act and feel.with all that been said what do you guys think about my tripping experience the whole Donald trump thing and the everything else i said more the Donald trump thing i wanna know if anyone else has had these milisecond visuals that feel like forever... my girl friend was tripping to but only on 2 1/2 tabs so she like always roles up into a ball and looks like and onion to me its the funniest thing in the world its like she derived from an onion at some point grew some legs theirs was her generation lmao i know not possible but still funny as hell!!!also id like to say treat your women right because they are it they are the goddess of this world we as men can manipulate them but as men of higher energy more power we must show that they have the same power. even more to change this world i remember she made a random noise (boop) and that was the beginning of everything man like it felt like is was trapped in the very far past and that noise was the beggining big bang like she started it all like if she wouldn't have made that noise life would have not bin created.... thats when i understood that we are vibrations we are cause of noise noise shapes us and everything we see or vibration gigahertz or w.e you wanna call it.... but id like to say this after that trip my life has never bin the same I'm never excited its like i know whats gonna happen next and life gives me what i need when i need it i don't ask for it or maybe i do (the law of attraction) is a very powerful thing and if it can happen it will happen so always go big in life never fall short of your dreams cause their right around the corner just waiting for your destiny to be fullfilled and yes i do believe theirs an ending to all this suffering i saw it!!! it just didn't let me explain it or even comprehend what i was seeing i saw kids in africa starving i was each and everyone of those kids i lived their lives and felt their suffering but the suffering needs to happen in order for a better future for us to realize we are all one and is time we treat each other as family not racially divided or financially divided just one person with many different waves if consciousness.. but we all split from one cell i literally saw it happen!!! i saw my great great great grand parents lives and i felt their pain and their love and thats why i believe i acid showed me all these things to do something with this world change it for the better so many damn cars so many damn jobs but in my city my girlfriend couldn't survive on her own she makes 1400 rent averages for 2 3 bedroom house is 1200 to 1600 so you do the math how the hell are we suppose to see a light at the end of the tunnel with all this greed money money money in the bible it sais money is not bad its the way you obtain it and the way you use it. so please be king to one another cause i know I'm going to die with a smile on my face knowing i changed the world. even if its being the first Spanish kid with harley in my city and the younger kid who sees drive by wants its so bad and thinks i look so cool that he decides to work hard for his harley do better then i did i wish i could have bin an astronaut but unfortunately in my city you had to be smart from the jump to get out. if you give a freshman the choices to do what he wants what the hell do you think he's gonna do. but again everything happens for a reason I'm successful at what i do and i always said i was gonna do it since i was a kid (GrowPot) legally in a safe way where I'm not risking my safety or my families everything happened for a reason man!! come to find out my grandfather was big on farming not marijuana but coconuts and bananas ect. life is no mystery i almost think it repeats itself generation after generation. because acid showed me this it show my g.g.g.g. grandma being picked on and feeling her pain and a couple generations later the same exact thing happen the same pain i felt for my grandma i felt when my g.g. grandma was picking on this other person grandchildren so karma is definitely passed on watch what you do in life cause everything has its negative and positive reaction but if you act more positive which is something i (try) to do positivity comes to you no matter what!!! all that said read this like it came from the bible cause it was given to me i didnt make this crap up. I just dont know what to do i walk through life very anxious to just get old and see whats next because this for damn sure aint the world for me and from time to time i feel suicidal but i try to think of it as just an imbalance in my brain so i ignore it but i feel like its just getting worst the more i trip the more i want it to teach me but i dont think it will ever show me those thing again...it seemed impossible the things i saw my girlfriend thought i was going nuts cause i kept saying huh!!! huh!!! HUH!!! o wow!!! huh!!! for what felt like a solid hour but tripping unless your recording your self which is something you never do because you realize once your in the trip theyll know when their meant to know. also tripped with my cousin that day who is a little off so i hesitated giving it to him cause hes already a little crazy but he accepted and i gave away the last 6 i had to him. the point im trying to get at is we were tripping so hard we were in each others head i can hear his thoughts and he can here mine so we said lets look at each other and so we did same time without speaking a lick of anything and then i said lets go into the grow room in my head and we ran of like children to the garden! i expected to much more when i saw the plants but they just expanding and contracting just like i was tripping normally all the visions had ended at this point and thats when i grabbed the note book and sat next to my onion and we just started scribbling away she wrote things like help and crazy!!! i started at the top with the beginning of it all a bunch of gibberish no writing one thing that really got me freaked out as my hands was drawing was one person in control of it all controlling our thoughts controlling what we do it was so weird to have your hand just write away as it pleases but when i got to the corner of the paper where all the answers were about to come out it would not let me write it completely stopped me from writing or even moving i was amazed by this i didnt want to tell me the secret to life i was so damn close but not the strongest man in the world could have put that pencil on that paper it was just not happening and believe me i tried to write what it was showing me but it wouldn't even let me comprehend what i was seeing...that being said you know whos suppose to know and when that why no one cares to record someone who is tripping and reading each others mind like actually put it to the test because you know what your hearing and it was my cousins voice so i just spoke right back and he answered we could have def put that to the test and I'm sure we would have scored a 100 both of us. like id hate to see my mother tripping on acid cause the high is something you may not be able to handle mentally which is what i though was gonna happen to my cousin... hes still a little loopy but the next week he started going to church and hasnt stopped since he still homeless but on his way to something better!!! i think what he saw was a little to heavy for his brain and he seeks the lord now lol... not that I'm laughing at anyone religion i just think thats something we made up in our heads the 10 commandments are within us we don't need to read a bible yet we don't follow these simple rules we know to share as kids well some kids don't but most kids share and are giving and dont see color they just see a friend...lets start looking at each other as such please!!! their is and ending to all this suffering but we all must play our role or generation after generation will doomed as the last one. Lets educate our children to the point were they can handle the stuff i saw mentally instead of shying away from it I'm not saying give your kid acid but if he does happen to find some let him or be because wether a bad trip or a good trip they will come out learning something about themselves and hopefully have the little balls to change the world for the better!!! cause i sure don't i think i got it I'm scared to see all that again but yet i wanna see it i would never recommend anyone to take that much acid i kept getting stuck in time loops and thats were i feel you can go insane imagine the same thought being thought the same person walking by time after time it really makes you think about time is it linear as some suggest or is it this giant circle where we can jump in and out of time if that made any sense... but it seems to me history truly repeats itself if your willing to let it it not support to we as a rase have to change the shitty path we are on like i said it could be a good outcome or a bad outcome it all depends on us you me we are one!!!
 
Hi MasterGrower,

First thing is, stop taking psychedelics, for a while, until you are better. In your current state they will only make things worse. Also, its quite hard to read your post, any chance you could break it up a bit, I have been up all night so not at my peak right now. But happy to try and help. :)
 
Hey, I will try and say a few things quickly because I need to lie down. One thing, you should feel privileged to be sensitive. Just because you are in tune with the pain of others doesn't mean there is anything wrong. In terms of tripping too hard, I had a bottle of liquid LSD spilt on me ten years ago, there is litterally no point now where I feel I have done too much acid. I did over 2000mcis at the weekend. But I trip less these days, because I don't need to.

One of the most important things about tripping is not just the actual trip itself but the time you NEED to take to process and integrate the things you have learnt and the development that have taken place in your consciousness. This should be as long as you need, there is no fixed amount of time. So thats what you really need to do now. In time all these sensitivities you have will become second nature and not an issue, I know from personal experience. Have faith in yourself. Psychedelics can help us evolve as a living being, but we cannot go too fast.

I can recommend developing a therapeutic skill like meditation, doing lots of exercise, and starting to take very good quality supplements, eating a good diet, all that kind of stuff. Too herbs that are very good for anxiety and the kind of difficult state you are in are shwagandha and brami, but traiditional Indian ayurvedic medicines. They can help to get your nervous system back in order, as would yoga if you know any or fancy going to some classes?

From one point of view, the world is going downhill. But if you recognise that you actually have the power to change the world, to be the ray of light it needs, that each one of us has that power, then you can become the solution rather than part of the problem. All of this will take time. But just because you see other people suffering doesn't mean you have to get dragged down. Compassion is a beautiful mind and although it connects us totally with the pain of others it should lift us up and inspire us to try and help.

I have to stop there but I hope my beginning is helpful. Please feel free to PM at any time if you need to, I will try and respond as quickly as I can.

Good luck, you will be fine, it will just take a little bit of time.
 
ny hallucinogen will make you feel great for me for about a week.... until u get mad again then all that peace and love goes out the damn window. I'm telling you man we are headed to a world full of depression i can feel it in my soul my it has to happen for us to appreciate what we have to appreciate each other even tho we are all one and this is why you see people who are really smart or took way to much acid i saw things that i thought u could never see. I saw that everything has its reasons i was sitting in donald trumps office like i was his consciencess i was him know knowing i was just seeing from above listening to his thoughts and god do i wish i remembered what the hell he was thinking but i think he was making a huge decision. this was 5 years ago my second trip ever took 6 or 7 maybe 8 hits (i know excessive but the person who donated it to me told me this was fine to take.
 
and obviously not i saw all lives lived in milliseconds i saw how it began but couldn't see how it ended and then i got a note book to try and write these amazing visuals i was having and literally that acid would not allow me to right the ending of our story its like i wasn't ready for it ...its what i hear from a lot of folks mushrooms is for play acid is for teaching and boy did it teach me. i understand now why they don't want it in the hands of common folks its may just drive you insane or it may make you the next Bill Gates some people say seeing that beautiful beach in santo domingo was life changing and i envy them yet feel bad for them
 
i tripped on acid in d.r it was ok then the anxiety kicked in and i just couldn't take the sweaty palms sweaty feet i just want to get in my boxer and lay down. oh and did i mention i went with a bunch of friends who are regular trippers like weekly trippers handled it like G.s while me a mans man couldn't take it..i wish i had a colonzapan with me that day cause i would have bin just fine. i find that when i take an anxiety pill before tripping the trip is always good cause the onset doesn't happen but regardless stayed at the beach saw the pink sand very finely it almost looked like my skin and the texture of my skin was of the sand this is where the overwhelming feeling started to set in but i tried to ignore it and it worked for a bit so i for a while swam with my buddy who has an extreme energy about him like overwhelming extreme they got clapped out the dinner room at one point i had left minutes before that. momma is good she protects me from getting in pointless arguments with pointless people who don't know shit about life or what it is to truly feel love for your neighbor or a random person walking down the street. granted i had to leave he was being so loud and just being himself on vacation i found it so disrespectful them clapping them out the room like that if only they new the person he was and how a friend like that takes you out your element and its beautiful when you feel comfort within strangers and we are on vacation let everyone act and feel what ever way they wanna act and feel.
 
I've also felt like this since i was a kid bud i was always in trouble ...never liked authority never really liked anything bud!!! i think i need some meds!!
 
I've got every toy you can think of but i don't use them because i feel like i don't deserve any of it!!! its the worst feeling in the world bud!!
 
Being good at tripping is not about being a man's man. It is about knowing how to flow with and gently steer your trip in the right direction. It has taken me years to be good at it. Really you shouldn't take an anxiety pill when you trip because you don't learn from it, its like pulling it two different directions, one closing you down and one opening you up, but if you need to fine. But I would strongly advise you to stop all psychedelics, even stop pretty much all drugs for a while until you get through this. Stims like speed, cocaine, meth, MDMA etc won't help at all with your anxiety, neither would strong cannabis either although feel free to tell me otherwise. You need to get properly grounded before you take off again. The only things you should really consider taking are things that can help you relax, maybe very careful use of benzos (massively addictive and not good at all long term) but there are herbal medicines like kratom which used occasionally (again, can be addictive) might help you. But please don't trip if you can help it, you are already full to bursting, you are not in the state right now to get anything more from them, you need to process and integrate what you already have. if you abuse psychedelics they can completely destroy you and you might not be able to come back if things get a lot worse. Just a warning, nothing to be scared about. You sent that message at exactly the right time.

Anxiety occurs during trips for nearly everyone, you just learn how to steer away from it. You don't have to go into those thought loops and downward spirals but you need to strengthen your mind and psychedelics aren't doing that for you right now. I stopped them for a very long time before I felt ready to do them again.

Its clear to me that your mind is going way to fast, you are too much in your head, when you write you don't even pause for breath. So you need to learn to relax again, its something you have always known anyway, you might just need to find it again inside yourself, its there. I really recommend some form of meditation, yoga and other exercise if you can, being in nature as much as possible, and feeling your feet firmly against the ground. You are part of this world, and as I said, you can become powerful enough to help change it. Feel yourself rooted like a tree. Try and sit still and close your eyes. At first it may be a bit overwhelming because you might notice just how out of control your mind is right now. But in time it will calm down. Try to breath gently and naturally and focus on your breath. Try to position yourself in the centre of your body at the level of your heart rather than your head, this is where you need to be to be strong and solid again.

You obviously have love and respect for other people which is amazing. Don't loose that, let it grow. Allow compassion to manifest for all the people in the world who are really suffering. Even allow yourself to shed a few tears for them if that's where you feel you are going. Just develop and strengthen the wish to help them, in whatever way you can. You probably won't know exactly how you will be able to help them now but don't worry about that, just keep the wish and the wish will take you to a position where you can actually start helping people.

Try not to panic, try not to give into those thoughts that say its all terrible, life's not worth living. You can't stop them but you don't have to listen to them.

Anyway, I really need to go. All this is advice for the long-term, changes won't happen overnight but these are simple things you can do know. And make sure you are taking in exactly what your body needs every day.

Look forward to hearing from you soon.
 
thanx bud ill shoot you a message tomrrow and hopefully you can ground me a little more...the thing is in city I'm from everyone laughs in my face!! this is why its so hard I'm battling to just be a regular selfish person knowing that thats not how a 4th dimensional human acts... he controls and i control a lot but I'm also driving myself insane trying to keep it all undercontrol its like to much bud my family just comes into my house and take w.e they want know i don't role like that ... I've got a nasty reputation from when i was kid so you'd figure people would respect what you've done in the past not because you wanted to but because i had to. i was the popular kid in high school cause i would let no (nerd) get picked on or even the teachers bud high school kids are shameless mofo the teacher would ask me to calm down the class and id go on a rant about that your mom up their teaching and your making this lady cry making her think she made the wrong choice by being a school teacher to our city thats why people ride around this city cause people just don't know how to treat each other!!talk to ya later bud thanx again
 
Listen mate, I understand totally. I don't talk about all this to 'normal' people, its like a have a persona for dealing with them but I never lose touch with the fact that I am undergoing a powerful process of evolution so that I can begin to use more of my brain and realise that I have a lot more potential than regular society would ever let me believe. None of your sensitivities are wrong at all, really you are getting in touch with how you should, in touch with nature and the universe. All life is deep connected, that's one thing that whenever i trip now comes to my mind straight away. But I keep all this understanding quite because there is no point sharing this stuff with people who don't want to accept it or at least have an open mind. You don't have to live a double life, you just need to keep your real mission, to help the world and the beings in it, to yourself and anyone else you feel safe to share it with, and then just try not to obviously upset the boat too much in regular society, which is totally out of sync with reality, with nature etc, which is one of the main reasons why everyone is getting so ill, depressed and so on and so on. Psychedelics tune you back in, in a very powerful way, and because we start off being so out of tune that process can be a bit difficult and painful. I have been there too bro, that's why I can help you. I am not preaching or anything, its very simple. Everything I am saying, all this stuff, is already inside you, obviously in your case itching to come out. Don't fight it, you have to walk into the fire to be reborn again as the phoenix rising from the ashes. That is what this process is. If you read any great story about a hero, they always have to go through tonnes and tonnes of shit before they get to their journey's end. Think about those Greek Myths, Odysseus, Hercules, or even Jesus, Buddha and many others. Everyone who has every achieved something really important, the real heroes of our world, have to experience the darkness, they have to walk through the fire. Everything for you now is exactly as its meant to be, it might be a tough for a little while, but that's just because you are going through a massive POSITIVE process of transformation.

Don't worry about how you were at school, I have been a little shit in my life, not just at school. I have been involved in drugs and illegal parties for all of my adult life and have picked up some bad habits along the way. No need to feel guilty, you just rational regret that you hurt people and then make a commitment not to be a shit again. Simple. Guilt is poisonous, we don't need it.

No, not enough people know how to treat each other, yet. But then one of the jobs for people like you and me is to show them the way, lead by example, to show what it means to live life properly. We should never preach or tell people how to think or behave, if we get it right they will see the difference, that it makes us happy and strong, and they will want to change. I have seen this in my own life.

Anyway, don't want to overload you with too much. Any questions, please please come back to me. I hope it makes sense, please let me know if it doesn't.
 
you the man

Thanx again bud its good to know their are others out their like me who think like me and react to certian things like me anything you have knowledge wise to put me more at peace with myself please spill it out.!!!


NiceEnough said:
Listen mate, I understand totally. I don't talk about all this to 'normal' people, its like a have a persona for dealing with them but I never lose touch with the fact that I am undergoing a powerful process of evolution so that I can begin to use more of my brain and realise that I have a lot more potential than regular society would ever let me believe. None of your sensitivities are wrong at all, really you are getting in touch with how you should, in touch with nature and the universe. All life is deep connected, that's one thing that whenever i trip now comes to my mind straight away. But I keep all this understanding quite because there is no point sharing this stuff with people who don't want to accept it or at least have an open mind. You don't have to live a double life, you just need to keep your real mission, to help the world and the beings in it, to yourself and anyone else you feel safe to share it with, and then just try not to obviously upset the boat too much in regular society, which is totally out of sync with reality, with nature etc, which is one of the main reasons why everyone is getting so ill, depressed and so on and so on. Psychedelics tune you back in, in a very powerful way, and because we start off being so out of tune that process can be a bit difficult and painful. I have been there too bro, that's why I can help you. I am not preaching or anything, its very simple. Everything I am saying, all this stuff, is already inside you, obviously in your case itching to come out. Don't fight it, you have to walk into the fire to be reborn again as the phoenix rising from the ashes. That is what this process is. If you read any great story about a hero, they always have to go through tonnes and tonnes of shit before they get to their journey's end. Think about those Greek Myths, Odysseus, Hercules, or even Jesus, Buddha and many others. Everyone who has every achieved something really important, the real heroes of our world, have to experience the darkness, they have to walk through the fire. Everything for you now is exactly as its meant to be, it might be a tough for a little while, but that's just because you are going through a massive POSITIVE process of transformation.

Don't worry about how you were at school, I have been a little shit in my life, not just at school. I have been involved in drugs and illegal parties for all of my adult life and have picked up some bad habits along the way. No need to feel guilty, you just rational regret that you hurt people and then make a commitment not to be a shit again. Simple. Guilt is poisonous, we don't need it.

No, not enough people know how to treat each other, yet. But then one of the jobs for people like you and me is to show them the way, lead by example, to show what it means to live life properly. We should never preach or tell people how to think or behave, if we get it right they will see the difference, that it makes us happy and strong, and they will want to change. I have seen this in my own life.

Anyway, don't want to overload you with too much. Any questions, please please come back to me. I hope it makes sense, please let me know if it doesn't.
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peaceNlove I'm still at it man hearing the looser birds if you know what i mean its the only thing that gets me talking otherwise I'm half dumb and i stutter like i have problem when i don't i honestly think its the weed when i don't smoke for a couple days I'm as smooth as the bruins skating rink but in my business its hard to say no when you wanna make friends with everyone that comes into the store..its like no matter what i can't avoid these demons man...the nose candy i honestly decided today but at the same time i didn't a saw kid a kid i used to know younger then me but he was a little G growing never thought id see him like that so he offered me a bump and you know how that goes. PeaceNlove bud really you've really helped me out here today ima quit everything starting when i wake up tomorrow including the perks I've bin on and off them for like 3 months now but i see me going down a bad nasty hole with those.. i like them way to much!!! but you've given me strength i haven't felt I've had in a long time thanx bud!!!
 
I am not saying stop taking drugs. Just give the psychedelics a break and intense stims if you can. If you can't, then just try and see from your own experience how they affect your mood and your state of mind. But from what you have told me if you don't take a breaks from the psych's it will be tough for things to get better, the drugs are telling you you don't need to take any more right now. Psychedelics are not ordinary drugs, they are powerful medicines and teachers. We must not feel like we need to prove how tough we are by using them. Maybe we are tough or we will become tough but that is not the purpose. The purpose is for them to help us become better and stronger, to realise who we really are. If it doesn't feel like they are doing that right now that's because this lesson is over and you need to do your homework so you can make sure you have really got the message.

When you say nose candy, what do you mean? I don't think dissociatives if not used all the time will necessarily be a major problem. It is the stims I am concerned about because they mess with critical neurotransmitters like serotonin, dopamine and noradrenalin, so important in improving your mood and trying to reduce and get rids of those nasty lows you have been having. If you have been having suicidal thoughts, even if you haven't really listened to those thoughts, that's a sign that your system is seriously out of balance. You can only push things so far before something snaps you know. Sometimes you can repair the break but it will make everything more difficult. You need to start healing, slowly, now.

I don't care what you take bro other than what my heart is telling me you need right now to get out of this, honestly I have done nearly every drug I have heard of and still dabble in quite a few so please don't expect any judgement. Have learnt many tough lessons though. Came out recently of over two years of benzodiazepine abuse and addiction, horrible man. Cravings have only just residing, the LSD trip at the weekend really helped with that. But tell me, if you want to, all the different drugs you are taking, so I can get a clearer picture of where you are right now. I would appreciate it, it will help me help you more effectively.
 
once in a while i do some coke like i would say 8 times on a heavy year I've taken lsd 5 6 times I've bin taking one perk 30 every other day sometimes i go 2days but sometimes i take 2 30mg thats bin going on for about 2 3 months i smoke weed not as much as i did when i was kid i would say breakfast lunch and dinner thats about it and trust me i don't feel judge no one could judge me if they tried I'm a god damn saint lol but no i don't feel like your judging i know your trying to figure exactly where my trainer thought is or going. i get it bud lol!!




NiceEnough said:
I am not saying stop taking drugs. Just give the psychedelics a break and intense stims if you can. If you can't, then just try and see from your own experience how they affect your mood and your state of mind. But from what you have told me if you don't take a breaks from the psych's it will be tough for things to get better, the drugs are telling you you don't need to take any more right now. Psychedelics are not ordinary drugs, they are powerful medicines and teachers. We must not feel like we need to prove how tough we are by using them. Maybe we are tough or we will become tough but that is not the purpose. The purpose is for them to help us become better and stronger, to realise who we really are. If it doesn't feel like they are doing that right now that's because this lesson is over and you need to do your homework so you can make sure you have really got the message.

When you say nose candy, what do you mean? I don't think dissociatives if not used all the time will necessarily be a major problem. It is the stims I am concerned about because they mess with critical neurotransmitters like serotonin, dopamine and noradrenalin, so important in improving your mood and trying to reduce and get rids of those nasty lows you have been having. If you have been having suicidal thoughts, even if you haven't really listened to those thoughts, that's a sign that your system is seriously out of balance. You can only push things so far before something snaps you know. Sometimes you can repair the break but it will make everything more difficult. You need to start healing, slowly, now.

I don't care what you take bro other than what my heart is telling me you need right now to get out of this, honestly I have done nearly every drug I have heard of and still dabble in quite a few so please don't expect any judgement. Have learnt many tough lessons though. Came out recently of over two years of benzodiazepine abuse and addiction, horrible man. Cravings have only just residing, the LSD trip at the weekend really helped with that. But tell me, if you want to, all the different drugs you are taking, so I can get a clearer picture of where you are right now. I would appreciate it, it will help me help you more effectively.
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