Edna Hole
Greenlighter
Nothing much new to say here, i'm a 43 year old who still acts 18!, I drift between longish periods of almost 'normality', job, girlfriend, own house, then I implode.
I've suffered depression and social anxiety from a very early age, I started drinking...much more than the other gang members in my circle did, and then drinking at home all day.
Anyhow, now after 20 plus years of hard drinkin I decided to give kratom a spin and either it's coincidence or helpful - I could drink 3 bottles of wine a day at some points, but for over the last few years I drank a full bottle every night before bed, literally 15mins down the neck! 8(
So kratom has cut me down to a bottle of beer or less a day.
So I was talking to my councillor who is proud how far I've come....but somedays I get the urge to insufflate, I only need to see a film with drug use or think of how good that first couple of rails felt way back then and I'm skulking about getting stuff delivered like 3-fpm, synthacaine, anything for the buzz of the old days of coke and mainly speed, acid, shrooms.....and plus I enjoy diazepam which I get prescribed though I top it up with diclazepam, pyrazolam, anything! I even walked around every farmacia whilst on hols buying up boxes of there strong 30mg codeine tablets.
So I don't drink much anymore. But I've got lines of synthacaine racked up three different benzo's to choose from and I tell everybody i'm fine, well quite honestly Bluelighters, i'm not a happy bunny.
Anyhow all at BL, if you got through that ramble give yerself a star. Thanks for having me on board
8(
I've suffered depression and social anxiety from a very early age, I started drinking...much more than the other gang members in my circle did, and then drinking at home all day.
Anyhow, now after 20 plus years of hard drinkin I decided to give kratom a spin and either it's coincidence or helpful - I could drink 3 bottles of wine a day at some points, but for over the last few years I drank a full bottle every night before bed, literally 15mins down the neck! 8(
So kratom has cut me down to a bottle of beer or less a day.
So I was talking to my councillor who is proud how far I've come....but somedays I get the urge to insufflate, I only need to see a film with drug use or think of how good that first couple of rails felt way back then and I'm skulking about getting stuff delivered like 3-fpm, synthacaine, anything for the buzz of the old days of coke and mainly speed, acid, shrooms.....and plus I enjoy diazepam which I get prescribed though I top it up with diclazepam, pyrazolam, anything! I even walked around every farmacia whilst on hols buying up boxes of there strong 30mg codeine tablets.
So I don't drink much anymore. But I've got lines of synthacaine racked up three different benzo's to choose from and I tell everybody i'm fine, well quite honestly Bluelighters, i'm not a happy bunny.
Anyhow all at BL, if you got through that ramble give yerself a star. Thanks for having me on board
8(
