I dunno, the thing is, people hold an invidious distinction when it comes to 'addiction'. I mean, no one can debate that in the majority of people, the very word is associated with non desireable, hopeless, depraved things.
And the thing that bothers me is that it's not like there's only one type of addict. I mean, it's not exactly the same, but it's similar to saying that all black or white or anybody of a particular race is the same as another person of that race. Of course there are stereotypical similarities that are rooted in truth, but different people are different people. Different addictions stem from different places. And different people will deal with addiction differently.
Okay, I've never shot heroin. I've snorted it on a few occasions. I have relatively little experience with opiates. Downers. So, I know little of physical addiction...
But...it's been said that I've had a slight coke problem. This, is true. But here's the thing...
I went into my past daily habit using it as a tool. A guarentee that I will wake up and feel motivated enough to go to work. And just generally keep me going. And do the things that I needed to do. Drive my life forward. Sort of silencing any sort of lazy complaint that might arise in my head to thwart action, movement. So, okay. And it worked. I used it as a tool.
"self medicating"...whatever. But the thing is that self medication is basically the complete opposite of self-destruction. It presupposes that you want to help yourself. So...
Yeah, it was a bit of an addiction...but I'm pretty driven about the things that are important in my life. And I was completely happy with the addiction. The groove that it provided, so that I could do the things that I needed to do.
But, I found out, that with stimulants, one burns out. So, as much as it started as what it started as, it ended as something completely different.
And the thing that bothers me is that it's not like there's only one type of addict. I mean, it's not exactly the same, but it's similar to saying that all black or white or anybody of a particular race is the same as another person of that race. Of course there are stereotypical similarities that are rooted in truth, but different people are different people. Different addictions stem from different places. And different people will deal with addiction differently.
Okay, I've never shot heroin. I've snorted it on a few occasions. I have relatively little experience with opiates. Downers. So, I know little of physical addiction...
But...it's been said that I've had a slight coke problem. This, is true. But here's the thing...
I went into my past daily habit using it as a tool. A guarentee that I will wake up and feel motivated enough to go to work. And just generally keep me going. And do the things that I needed to do. Drive my life forward. Sort of silencing any sort of lazy complaint that might arise in my head to thwart action, movement. So, okay. And it worked. I used it as a tool.
"self medicating"...whatever. But the thing is that self medication is basically the complete opposite of self-destruction. It presupposes that you want to help yourself. So...
Yeah, it was a bit of an addiction...but I'm pretty driven about the things that are important in my life. And I was completely happy with the addiction. The groove that it provided, so that I could do the things that I needed to do.
But, I found out, that with stimulants, one burns out. So, as much as it started as what it started as, it ended as something completely different.
