Heroin screwed my life up - please help me

[TheLostBoys]

Right now I am also completely broke. My bank account is in the negative, I have to pay rent soon and my electricity has already been shut off because $200 is owed to the company, and I cant even return the rental car I got (paid for by the insurance of the woman who hit me in an accident) because I don't have enough money to fill the gas tank. I am depressed and fucked and still have no clue what to do about college. Taking a semester to figure out everything would be nice but then my student loans would probably be fucked.

Not having money can be very depressing. In your case, it seems like a double edged sword. You know if you really want to quit using, you will have to make sure your bf wants to stop as well if you wanna stay with him, if not, you gotta separate for a while. Also, when you go back home, sit your parents down & tell them what you've told us, hopefully they will help you.

Good luck with getting threw with the money situation.

 

[psychohedonist]

I have not much to add to the practical suggestions - in the end it is up to you whether you do this with or without your boyfriend, whether you do it now, or whether you do it later.

The 2 things I see are 1) You need to find a way of getting clean. 2) You need to find a way of staying clean.

You feel in a very dark place right now, with everything closing in on you, the money, the college, everything, but the heroin is ultimately going to make that so much worse.

From what you say it sounds like you have a lot of potential. You've made mistakes, and have fucked up for now, try to use that "shit, I've fucked up really bad here" as a wake up call. You have the potential, and the strength, to get through this, and not be that fuck up - you have to dig very deep to find it sometimes.

I wish I had more answers for you. I wish you the very best of luck in getting through this.