PendulumAM
Bluelighter
Heroin has basically fucked my life up. I started doing it in January 2010 and have been addicted ever since. I am a 20 year old female and a college junior, but I am also having a crisis about college since I want to change my major to nursing but the nursing program in my college is extremely competitive and I have already taken out so many student loans for my education right now. I have no clue who to talk to about this, I was thinking I could transfer to one of those 2 year program schools for nursing from my 4 year university but I really don't know what to do.
Anyway, my boyfriend introduced me to heroin, and I have been using it throughout spring semester 2010, fall semster 2010 and the spring semester of 2011 now. When I went home for the summer and winter breaks in 2010 (home is in a state 1500 miles from my college) I kept withdrawals away with the suboxene my boyfriend is perscribed, so I have basically been hooked on that or dope since last January. We were both arrested for posession of heroin and drug paraphanelia in October 2010, which was how my family found out I was using. They got me a lawyer and I have just been sentenced to pre-trial diversion, which means the charges will be dropped as long as I complete the program with no problems, so that isn't my biggest problem right now. I lied to my family about not being that heavy of a user and they think I am clean right now. All my financial aid for school went to heroin this semester, and after that my boyfriend, me, and 2 of my boyfriends friends resorted to stealing things from peoples yards and pawning it for drug money. This went on for the past 2 months, and now both my boyfriends friends are in jail. One has 4 felony charges including burglary and selling a stolen item to a pawnbroker, and the other had a burglary charge in the beginning of March, got out of jail, and just got locked up again and had his bond revoked (we don't know why, we only know these things because we can look them up).
So right now I see that this lifestyle cant last forever, 2 of the people I have been hanging out with a lot are in jail for some serious charges, and I have no money and am having a crisis about my future. Right now I'm using my boyfriends suboxene to keep withdrawals away. I have a part time job at my college and the semester will be finished by the end of April. I will be a senior in the fall but I wont be able to graduate because I've only been taking 4 classes a semster, and even then I want to change majors and probably schools but have no idea what to do (and there is the problem of all my student loans). Plus, my boyfriend and I have been together for almost 2 years but the heroin has basically changed our relationship and we aren't the same. He is all I have down here in college, since I basically alienated all my old friends after I became an addict. I am confused and depressed and scared of the future. Please help.
Anyway, my boyfriend introduced me to heroin, and I have been using it throughout spring semester 2010, fall semster 2010 and the spring semester of 2011 now. When I went home for the summer and winter breaks in 2010 (home is in a state 1500 miles from my college) I kept withdrawals away with the suboxene my boyfriend is perscribed, so I have basically been hooked on that or dope since last January. We were both arrested for posession of heroin and drug paraphanelia in October 2010, which was how my family found out I was using. They got me a lawyer and I have just been sentenced to pre-trial diversion, which means the charges will be dropped as long as I complete the program with no problems, so that isn't my biggest problem right now. I lied to my family about not being that heavy of a user and they think I am clean right now. All my financial aid for school went to heroin this semester, and after that my boyfriend, me, and 2 of my boyfriends friends resorted to stealing things from peoples yards and pawning it for drug money. This went on for the past 2 months, and now both my boyfriends friends are in jail. One has 4 felony charges including burglary and selling a stolen item to a pawnbroker, and the other had a burglary charge in the beginning of March, got out of jail, and just got locked up again and had his bond revoked (we don't know why, we only know these things because we can look them up).
So right now I see that this lifestyle cant last forever, 2 of the people I have been hanging out with a lot are in jail for some serious charges, and I have no money and am having a crisis about my future. Right now I'm using my boyfriends suboxene to keep withdrawals away. I have a part time job at my college and the semester will be finished by the end of April. I will be a senior in the fall but I wont be able to graduate because I've only been taking 4 classes a semster, and even then I want to change majors and probably schools but have no idea what to do (and there is the problem of all my student loans). Plus, my boyfriend and I have been together for almost 2 years but the heroin has basically changed our relationship and we aren't the same. He is all I have down here in college, since I basically alienated all my old friends after I became an addict. I am confused and depressed and scared of the future. Please help.