I am closing this thread because it is more blog material then a question. I do second the above post in that you must be careful not to over do it especially if you are already experiencing the symptoms of high dose use you can easily get sick or OD. I understand the residual desire to ingest an opiate daily however methadone and suboxone have long enough half lives where you can go 24 hours without dosing. Having come off a daily habit I know this takes a level of conditioning to get over the once a day need but believe me once your stable on methadone you can go 24 easily. I have personally taken it to about 60 hours before I *needed* my dose and I probably could have squeezed more time but I was only testing myself so 60h was enough.
You may benefit from posting in the Dark Side or Recovery Support forums. You can gain strength from support groups especially here as in my experience at the clinic your standard junkie is way different from your Bluelight reading junky because a lot of people who go to methadone clinic fully believe the hype they hear. Thats not to say they are bad or something but depending on who you are you might find our support groups more in tune with who you are. PM me if you have questions I am on my second round of recovery and have been on methadone for 6 months so far. You can do this!
