Heroin pinned me to the ground....

[bdomihizayka]

All I can think about is heroin. It is absolutely maddening.

I started using opiates through benzo withdrawal. I was only on benzos a few months klonopin at 1mg a day, but fuck, it was so hard coming off...... psychologically and physically.

I cannot afford painkillers. In my area it is extremely expensive. But I live near Camden NJ and Philly, so I had my hands on some of the best powder heroin in America.

I used opiates recreationally for a year. Couple times a month maybe before the benzo withdrawal.

So benzo withdrawal hits bad, and BAM, Im snorting heroin.

I have some weird reactions to heroin. I use two or more days in a row and it seems like I withdrawal..... I have no idea why that is, it might be due to my tolerance (250mg oxy in a sitting or 5 bags h snorted) It may have to do with my already downregulated Gaba????

I am 3 days clean. I am cold sweating. I have nightmares, and I NEVER dream..... and I have no interest in ANYTHING.

I isolate myself from everyone. I want to talk to nobody. I havent even masturbated in over a month and I'm 24 years old..... Theres definitely something wrong in my head, and I know it needs to heal from these chemicals and drugs; BUT HOLY LORD JESUS I cannot stop thinking about heroin!!!! HOW THE FUCK DO YOUS DO IT?!?!?!?

I have a gun. I don't have any ammunition atm. Heroin, or a bullet to the head..... it's the only ways to go...... I need help, I WANT out but how?!?!?!

 

[twotoomany]

Time, man. Time. Benzo withdrawal is NO joke. And the PAWS can be debilitating. Just try and hold on!!!

 

[tripsixxcrew]

you're three days clean? from there out it will only get better, man. the withdrawals are gonna start to die down after today. but like twotoomany said, PAWS can be just as exhausting. if you're stuck on getting clean then your mind is gonna keep thinking about drugs and look right back towards using whenever shit gets tough. it's gonna do this for several months at the very least, but it'll pass and you just gotta take it one day at a time. if that doesn't work out then just take it one minute at a time. but if you want it, you can do it. i was in your exact same place less than two months ago, and i know how bad it fucking blows. literally all that i could think about was slamming dope and everything i could go trade or sell for some more but i knew i had to get clean. personally, i went to rehab and once i got atleast 10 days clean everything started looking up for me. once you stop digging yourself deeper in this shithole, it will ONLY look up from there on out. goodluck!

 

[chugs]

play some computer games.

When I've withdrawn, many many times now, I've found when I've got no gear, no subs, no cold water extracted codeine, poppy seed tea or large vitamin C doses (really works), or even green fresh apples (seriously give it a go), the only thing that seems to help is playing the most addicted computer game I can find. You know the sort of game where you play an 8 hours goes like 1 hour. Where you find yourself awake at 3am.

I've withdrawn in the most fucked up of places. Once I was in a corporate training session with a dozen senior managers (general managers). I was in full blown withdrawals from, admittedly from a 1 point (100mg) a day of good heroin/china white. there i was, leg twitching like a motherfucker, sweats coming and going and I had to do role playing, focus on complex tasks, and do group presentations. Green apples helped me that day. I must of eaten like 5 of the fuckers in 4 hours.

but that's where vitamin C works. (google it, vitamin C and heroin withdrawals). The problem is absorption of vit C at high doses is significantly less then absorption at low doses (90% vs 30%).

on a side note the internet is awhirl with a supposed new method that commercial producers use, that is mixing vitamin c in a blender with a oil. apparently it absorbs awesomely giving the person vitality never experienced before.

anyway sell the gun. buy some apples and buy some vit C

 

[lonewolf05]

You're at your bottom bro. Things will only go up from here. Try immodium, vitamin c, and an amino acid labeled "L-Tyrosine"

 

[jaspersilence]

Time is very accurate,with anything...You have to force yourself to stay active,even while feeling like shit.This will get your body to producing endorphins naturally,a lot quicker.As far as the cravings when the withdraw is over...Praying is the best way to go...You said his name already friend...Lord Jesus..He waits for us to come homeI wish you a healthy clean life...

 

[tripnotyzm]

Hang in there man. You're going through a lot right now, but you're not alone.
Benzo & heroin withdrawals are fucking insane..
You know how intense it is to come off a few days of heroin use, imagine how severe your suffering will be if you let yourself use more frequently.
Stay clean man, its a tough fight but in a few days you will see the light.
Just don't give in to these drugs - that's what they want you to do.

 

[Sepher]

Hey, hang in there man. All ex-addicts have been right where you, know exactly how you feel and came out the other side. You've broken the back of this now, it can only get better. It will be a long road you will have to steel yourself for but recovery is quite possible. You just need to hang in there mate, it will get better, I promise you. You're already on your way. Keep fighting. A life free of this is yours for the taking.

How to deal with the cravings? Distract yourself. Wait them out. Try breathing exercises, meditation, go for a walk, to a friends, talk to someone on the phone, online, do the washing up if a sink full of dirty pots needs doing, take the rubbish out, anything that will actively fill a few minutes more and give you something else to think about while you do it.