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heroin, opiate addiction
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unsettled
Bluelighter
I hate Heroin! I hate Heroin because I Love Heroin, because I always come back to it even when I think I'm done with it and I don't ever need to fuck with it again.
I love Heroin because as long as I have it I'll feel great and in a way just very content with each phase of my day, I'll wake up with H and I'll be in a good mood an feel energized and get to work. I'll do more on breaks and it just keeps me in a good mood. Then when I need to sleep it helps me fall asleep in the most blissful way possible. It also allows me to focus on creative activities in a very unique way. Like the poster above said I love ripping open the little wax bags, I even love going to the ghetto and meeting up with people who I can't even understand on the phone at the most random locations and picking up a bag of paradise.
However, after awhile I'll start to notice that I'm doing more and more, that my bank account is overdrawn, that I'm not making it to my appointments on time because I had to score first and it took longer than I thought but I wasn't about to go to work sick. Then I'll also notice that hours and hours start to slip away when I get a little higher than I had anticipated and nod off, I'll also start to be bothered by how annoying it is to take showers....
This is when I go back on my subs and realize how dumb it is to stay on Heroin. Subs actually work great for me but sometimes I'll go off them for what was supposed to be a day but turns into weeks! The power that H has is truly frightening.
As far as WD's go I'd say I've had horrible WD's from Poppy Pods and Heroin. Heroin WD's are worse for me only in their intensity, they don't last as long but they bring me to my knees and are as close to hell as I've ever been. Poppy Pods were pretty terrible too and they lasted longer but they weren't as intense overall.
I've dabbled in hydrocodone and oxycodone but they never got a hold of me the way H did. I actually love Suboxone for the stability it brings to my life, the wd's aren't fun but it's much easier to taper off of than any of the others. I love the way subs satisfy my opiate urge but keep me functional and clear headed and still allow me a more full emotional range than H.
Anyway, those are my thoughts on opiate addiction at the moment. Sorry if they were a little long.
I love Heroin because as long as I have it I'll feel great and in a way just very content with each phase of my day, I'll wake up with H and I'll be in a good mood an feel energized and get to work. I'll do more on breaks and it just keeps me in a good mood. Then when I need to sleep it helps me fall asleep in the most blissful way possible. It also allows me to focus on creative activities in a very unique way. Like the poster above said I love ripping open the little wax bags, I even love going to the ghetto and meeting up with people who I can't even understand on the phone at the most random locations and picking up a bag of paradise.
However, after awhile I'll start to notice that I'm doing more and more, that my bank account is overdrawn, that I'm not making it to my appointments on time because I had to score first and it took longer than I thought but I wasn't about to go to work sick. Then I'll also notice that hours and hours start to slip away when I get a little higher than I had anticipated and nod off, I'll also start to be bothered by how annoying it is to take showers....
This is when I go back on my subs and realize how dumb it is to stay on Heroin. Subs actually work great for me but sometimes I'll go off them for what was supposed to be a day but turns into weeks! The power that H has is truly frightening.
As far as WD's go I'd say I've had horrible WD's from Poppy Pods and Heroin. Heroin WD's are worse for me only in their intensity, they don't last as long but they bring me to my knees and are as close to hell as I've ever been. Poppy Pods were pretty terrible too and they lasted longer but they weren't as intense overall.
I've dabbled in hydrocodone and oxycodone but they never got a hold of me the way H did. I actually love Suboxone for the stability it brings to my life, the wd's aren't fun but it's much easier to taper off of than any of the others. I love the way subs satisfy my opiate urge but keep me functional and clear headed and still allow me a more full emotional range than H.
Anyway, those are my thoughts on opiate addiction at the moment. Sorry if they were a little long.
unsettled
Bluelighter
Actually, Overall I think Benzo WD is the worst by far.