And I seriously mean it when I say fun times. I've been using small amounts off and on. It's been more off than on, so I've been in like a constant state of detox. I've noticed that the more it happens, the more I get used to it... and the easier it is to deal with. Knock on wood though. And then there are the emotions that come with it... some are bad, really bad, but at least they're there. Heroin has a way of making you wonder if you're even still human or not. I'm pretty sure I have cried a total of one time in the past however many months I've been using, and that time was yesterday... or maybe the day before yesterday... when I was sick and detoxing. I wasn't even high. It's kind of fucked up when you think about it. Heroin just like blocks all emotions, even joy. The only joy you know anymore when you're using just so you aren't sick are the few seconds you get from the rush. That's pretty sad. It steals your memories too. I'm about 2 days into my detox and I was just laying in bed right now (unable to sleep of course) and all these memories were going through my head. Not all of them were good, but some of them were. They were all things I had completely forgotten about for the most part.
I don't really know how I feel right now. I'm somewhere in between depressed and ecstatic, if that makes sense. To you it probably doesn't but to me it does. Heroin withdrawals come with some weird ass emotions.
That is all.
I don't really know how I feel right now. I'm somewhere in between depressed and ecstatic, if that makes sense. To you it probably doesn't but to me it does. Heroin withdrawals come with some weird ass emotions.
That is all.
