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Heroin and Depression Question (Urgent)

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Dystopia35

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I have been smoking tar for about 3 months. Last week I tried to kick cold turkey. I made it 48 hours. I had the usual insomnia and aches. Physically wasn't that bad. However the depression was absolutely horrible. I literally cried for 2 days uncontrolkably. Since then I have been depressed. I started a new job today and I suddenly could not stop crying. It is just brutal depression.
Has anyone else had experiences like this. Also I was wondering if anyone knew why this is happening. Like what is causing my brain to do this?
 
nonstop crying is a symptom of opiate withdrawal, it's on wikipedia.
I can't explain exactly why it happens but it has to do with brain chemistry being imbalanced, your body and mind have become used to the heroin and now it's gone.
Don't quit trying man, u gotta beat this, it's hard...
 
Itsbfucking horrible. I can't work or function like this. I can deal with the physical symptoms but this shit is fucking torture. My wife keeps asking me why I'm crying. I'm not sad about anything its just uncontrollable. And now the crying happens sometimes even when I do have heroin.
 
i get that with depression... like crying for absolutely no reason imean.
you need to get yourself into detox man, either outpatient or in a hospital.
Ive seen people go to hospitals to detox for a lot less than smoking H
if you can get into detox it'd be worth the bill, because it still costs less than a lifetime of heroin addiction
 
wow sucks that no other bluelighters are here to help... wish i could offer more advice but heroin wasnt one of my addictions
 
I know um surprised more people haven't replied but this is why I made the post. You always hear about the painful physical issues with heroin but until it started happening to me I was not aware of the horrific depression that can come with this.
 
If you think of the opiate system as being that which controls feeling of wellbeing and comfort - when you abuse drugs, your natural opiate system gets lazy and unexercised. So when the drugs are suddenly removed, it can only just barely pick itself up and stumble around.

I've been using opis more than usual for last few months, and though I don't use regularly enough to get physicals, I think I get randomly upset more often. Like i'll just be walking down the road and go off in my imagination and some random scene will bring me practically to tears, often it's just some fictional fantasy thing, nothing objectively upsetting. Didn't connect it to the opis until reading this thread, perhaps it's related.
 
It is just very frustrating because she this is the one symptom that keeps me from quitting and it seems there is nothing I can do to help it.
 
Dopamine receptors in the brain aren't being fed anymore, so the depression sinks in.

We, as addicts, don't have normal dopamine receptors anymore. The natural dopamine we used to have is gone from drug use. Our brains will never be the same again, thus the reason why many addicts get depressed.

My advice is to hang in there. Most of the physical symptoms will subside over time. It's tough going cold turkey, that's why I keep methadone on hand to help ease withdrawal symptoms.

You have the option to go on anti depressants but even then, it takes a few weeks for them to work, and by then, the worst will be over.


Hugs
 
As other people have posted your symptoms are totally normal.

I would suggest trying to find an alternative approach to cold turkey, have you considered suboxone therapy?

It would be worth it to get control of your life, just keep the resolve you have and try not to stay on it longer than necessary.

When I was in detox I couldn't stop crying and I guess I was bumming out the drunks and the doctor told me that it wasn't acceptable and started giving me ssri's, I was like dude this happens, I just need to deal with it.

Hang in there Dystopia! :)
 
It's quite normal, your body and mind are used to being in that wonderful place where heroin brings you. It's a very powerful drug and your brain chemistry will have to change and go back to normal, this will take time. Everything you're feeling means that your body is working on it, it's not going to be easy but you can definitely do it.

Maybe consider a taper if the WD are that bad, there are a few OTC meds that can help you too. I'm sure other bluelighters will be able to help you more with that.
 
I had the exact same problem. I was injecting heroin. During the withdrawal I became obsessed with horrible things people do to each other. I had nightmares about being skinned and buried alive. It was terrible. I couldn't get the images of genocide and torture out of my mind. It made me feel suicidal. I started on suboxone and everything started to get better. Hang in there. Its worth the pain. I wouldn't wish this pain on my worst enemy.
 
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I got off suboxone with the help of kratom loperimide and gabapentin. With this combination you will feel little to no withdrawal or depression.
 
I am going to have to find out how to get on suboxone. Is it expensive? I have tried tapering my h use but the depression kicks in super fast. I have kratom and it does help a little. I have researched suboxine and it sounds like what I need. Im worried about the cost.
 
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