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Heroin Always Wins!

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KillaMike

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So I have been on 6mg of suboxone a day for about 1 year now, but every couple weeks I relapse on heroin for a couple days. I'm not sure if I'm craving or if I just want to get high. When I know I have some money coming in, I get really excited and began to think about getting high in a couple days. These thoughts happen even while I am on Suboxone. At that point though, I stop taking my Suboxone so I can get high in a couple days. I know I definitely don't want to do it anymore, but basically I do it for a couple days and my cravings are gone so couple weeks goes by and then the cravings are back. This is pretty consistent every couple weeks. The only reason why I haven't been caught is because I buy the heroin and hold onto it until my doctors appointment and after I give a urine sample I do the dope because I know that I won't have to pee for two weeks. Has anybody else been in a situation like this? Does anybody have any advice for me? My counselor thinks I should be honest with my doctor and get an increase in Suboxone, but I believe 6 mg is plenty but yet again I have a lot of relapses so I don't know
 
I would consider just asking for an increase.

Do you think that an increase in dose will do the trick or will you just end up on a higher dose with the same exspierience?

Money is a strong trigger for many people.

Is there anything you can think of to break the pattern.

I think if you can make it past one cycle without useing it will become easier.

Whats something amazing you can plan and do after the next dr apointment that will provide you with motivation not to follow the same.

Get a plane ticket somewhere rich and hop it right after the apointment?
 
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Thanks for your reply! Maybe I should just force myself to not do it for a month and see how I feel before increasing Suboxone. If I could afford a plane ticket I definitely would LOL!
 
See how you feel? Why not just not do it despite how you feel? Strength > All, it just needs to always be reminded when in the trials of drug history.
 
You will get there. I relapsed frequently after l quit Heroin the first year. Eventually the times between grew larger. Sounds like you need to find some new friends. I had to quit hanging out with EVERYONE to stay clean. It's a journey. Even though l dropped my two gram a day H habit l maintained my addiction with pills for a couple more years. I am now only a week off of all opiates because l was finally ready. You will get there, it's no way to live. Just do the best you can everyday. Change takes time.
 
I think you should try to check out some N.A. or A.A. groups get a sponsor n shit. I think increasing your dose won't help, sounds more like a mental thing. The main thing is realising all the bad things that dope has done, weighing out the positives and negatives, finding out what your triggers are. You will learn alot of this stuff by going to meetings and getting a sponsor. But none of this matters unless you really want to quit. And like ruby slippers said changing who you are around that was the biggest for me. I would always relapse when I would b around someone who had boy or any opiates. I honestly prolly still would if I was around one of my friends and they busted out some bags and rigs. Addiction is fd up
 
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