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Heroin addiction help

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mike1989

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hey!!my question is, 3 years ago i smoked my first time heroin, but i never liked it very much, and i wont do it some times for several months, i dont know if by that time i was addicted(psychologicaly), but 5 months ago, i started smoking again, and the first time i smoked, five months ago, it changed something in me.(before that, the last time i've smoked was 3 or 4 months ago.) And since then i was smoking heroin in the first month, one time a week,and then i dont know how,but, i lost control...(obsiously!!!!!)and started 2 days a week...3 days a week and so on...and now i'm smoking 3 days...i stop one...smoke more 2 or 3 days in a row...sometimes i dont have cash for 2 or 3 days and had to stop, but for 3 months(more or less)i was in this rythm...i dont know if i w.d...in the 3rd day i start feeling a bit strange,cold..a bit sick,insomnia.. but i dont know if this is my mind tricking me or is the w.d! I'm a bit scared because my dad is addicted to heroin too, and i dont want to fuck up my life..i just dont know,i love my life, but i am feeling a bit lost,disconected,i know what i like, i have interests,i love nature,birds and plants,i like living but sometimes i feel i am not doing anything, the life im living is not enough....
And i was and i am so curious about everything...not just the drugs but..life. And now i dont know what to do, i am not having the will power that i need to back off this drug...i'm feeling a fool, an idiot, to think that i can play with this drug.
I have a girlfriend(6 years relationship), she is "trying to helping" me, my friends(one of them addicted too)dont know what to do, my dad is addicted too and is suspicious about me..is councerned, and this hurts me...seeing my family...my girlfriend, all suffering coz the things im doing. i need an opinion, i do want to stop, i know i do but i'm not having the will power i need i think...im thinking about suboxone...but i dont even know if this makes sense...or if i need to hit the ground, to awake...:S
PS:sorry for the bad english, i understand english very well, but dont speak or write as well(i'm from portugal). Thanks, and i appreciate all the opinions;)
 
Don't really know what to say...it seems to me if you're this conscious and care this much about how much it's affecting your life and how bad it is for you and your environment, you probably have enough motivation in you to stop. Maybe try to see your heroin addicted friend a bit less for the moment to avoid temptation? Also if you have a non-user girlfriend I'm sure you could lean on her for help through this, but I mean it's better to stop before it gets even worse...To be quite honest I'm not exactly sure why you're using, but if it's not for self-medication (as you said you're happy with your life) it'll probably be easier to withdraw. Talk to a psychologist maybe, and look for other ways to live 'more'. I also fantasize about turning to heroin to get some sort of further insight into life, but luckily I haven't gone down that path yet. When you get through the withdrawal and start getting used to life without H again, I'm sure you'll be able to satisfy this curiosity you talk about the natural way. Good luck
 
This is the most difficult situation for any person to leave such a bad habit. The only thing can do is control on our mind to stop it. There are many medicines available in a market which helps to leave from this addiction. Before that you need to contact to a rehab doctor for a best medicine. If you have some time then you can join rehab center also. I must say leave this bad habit immediately.
 
thanks guys, im now clean for 2 weeks, and im feeling fine, i dont have many craves, sometimes i feel a bit depressed, but when i dont feel depressed i feel happy, and im reorganizing my life again, thats wonderful feeling sober for two weeks...totaly sober:)my head feels much more lucid...my body is more energetic, my thougts are more positive...thanks again you 2;)
 
glad you are clean :)

sorry i didn't get around to moving this sooner! i am sending it to the dark side where there is an awesome group of supportive people :)
 
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