Here's Hoping

[jeebus13]

Well,
it's Friday night.
It's grown eerily quiet
and unseasonably cold
outside
and it's not much better in.
I feel like I'm waiting on something.
Like it's just around the next corner
this thing
and it's amazing and beautiful
and I'll wonder how I ever lived
without it.
But on and on I live
and ever without
this evasive thing
that will save my bitter soul.
I guess I've always been waiting
always been the patient one
letting the wonder find me.
I used to think that it might be
a person...
then I got to know some people.
Then I thought it might be a cat,
but they are really bad at lurking
around strange corners of my dreams.
Now,
I just title it a 'thing'
because every day
it gets harder
and harder
to imagine something that might
lead me to a real understanding of ...
what?
Life?
Myself?
The world?
Who knows.
But I just have to keep
believing
in that thing
and that it is very near...
even on nights as cold as this one...
and that it might just be as lonely
waiting for me
as I am for it.
I just hope.
And maybe one day
hoping
will actually work...

 

[cherub]

Jeebus,,,,, great work darlin

I can relate to this soooo much,,,, still searching that balance but getting closer and closer each day!

*Hugs*

 

[up all night]

This is the story of my Friday night. Tonight has been a long process of waiting.