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ecate89

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Hello guys, I am an Italian girl. I registered to this site because I need to practice my English through some interesting topics...a part from that, my cat is having trouble managing his use of recreational drugs.

He used different substances during the past years, without any problems worth mentioning, but one would always be stuck in his mind. He talked me about heroin, about its perfection. He smoked and sniffed it just a few times, but had a hard time not to do it again. He used other opiates aiming at reducing problems and dangers, he often ended up becoming addicted to them and that was a problem because the supply couldn't be granted. So he tried kratom, experimented with different varieties and he thought he had found an appropriate replacement. Then he had trouble with it too, decided to quit and did so.

He hasn't used drugs for some months and everything was ok. 3 weeks ago he had a bad shock and now he's suffering from that event. He says that his mind can't help thinking about heroin, now he's been having a hard time not going out look for it. He ordered some kratom with the same aim of the previous time, but Italian mail services are the worst ever and he's scared about doing something stupid. So he asked me to register here and see if I can report him any advice or support. He'd be glad even to just got a bit distracted from his obsession.
 
Hi, Welcome to Bluelight ! !

I understand - I've been there switching one drug for another, lastly heroin ... then methadone briefly to taper off. Good for you for making a choice to get out of the compulsive cycle of addiction, it's not easy…. (as the obsession is still present), and one needs a lot of support and indeed to distract themselves with activities. Bluelight has helped me take my mind off drugs, as you say.

May I move your post to sober living or another section? Also, no need to be concerned about self incrimination here. You can use the first person to write. :)
 
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Thank you!
I'm glad I've already found some people who can understand me, sometimes it's difficult to face all this on your own.
Did methadone help you? How are you feeling now?

I don't think it would be appropriate to move the post to sober living, since I relapsed. I did it two days ago and I've never felt so horrible before...everyone around me is trying to help me out because of this difficult period, and I was so irresponsible.
At least it was just one evening, I didn't go on because in some part of me I already felt the stupidy of what I was doing.

Ok got it, I read the rules and thought it was better to talk about swiy.
 
Hello I'm McDeaug from Melbourne, Australia. I've frequented this forum many times but now I'm one of what I assume is many people who are getting a tad wiggy with it and register to seek some advice and assurance. Where can I post a question about mixing two particular substances? Thank you.
 
Thank you!
I'm glad I've already found some people who can understand me, sometimes it's difficult to face all this on your own.
Did methadone help you? How are you feeling now?

I don't think it would be appropriate to move the post to sober living, since I relapsed. I did it two days ago and I've never felt so horrible before...everyone around me is trying to help me out because of this difficult period, and I was so irresponsible.
At least it was just one evening, I didn't go on because in some part of me I already felt the stupidy of what I was doing.

Ok got it, I read the rules and thought it was better to talk about swiy.

Hi, relapse happens. It happened to me many times and has helped me in hindsight to reaffirm I can't control tolerance… The brain wants the drug… I don't…. the endless conflict in the psyche. At least for me it was like that. I just do my best to not take it personally, or blame myself ... if that makes sense. I'm doing much better now, almost a year later.

The methadone helped mask the heroin withdrawals, thus it was difficult but not as treacherous using the methadone for 5 days.
How are you doing now?
 
Hi, relapse happens. It happened to me many times and has helped me in hindsight to reaffirm I can't control tolerance… The brain wants the drug… I don't…. the endless conflict in the psyche. At least for me it was like that. I just do my best to not take it personally, or blame myself ... if that makes sense. I'm doing much better now, almost a year later.

The methadone helped mask the heroin withdrawals, thus it was difficult but not as treacherous using the methadone for 5 days.
How are you doing now?
I'm glad you're ok now, I wish I was too...I'm not using but the craving is strong
 
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