Stimlover22
Bluelighter
Hey everyone, well here I am coming up on 11 months clean from crystal meth. My goal in writing this post is that it may help a fellow addict that is struggling with methamphetamine. I fell into meth addiction within a period of months. When I called it quits I was an I.V user and occcasionally vaped it. I started out snorting the shards, the next week I was smoking it and the next week I was mainlining high quality crystal meth right into my veins which I never thought wasnsomething I would ever do. I wasted $1,300 on dope in a period of 3 months, and lost my job. I just want anyone to know who may be struggling with Tina that it can be done and YOU WILL start feeling better. Here are some reasons that I am happy to be clean that serve as a reminder to myself of why I am doing this whenever those cravings set in.
1. I have a lot more money now and I am able to do things that are fun w/o alterting my mind.
2. I've finally realized how wonderful it is to WANT to eat food, and remember now how much I loved food before I became spun out all the time.
3. My face has became much fuller now, which helps me to be less self-conscious about myself.
4. My paranoid delusions are no more! It's a relief that my mind is no longer suspicious. Thoughts like " They can tell im spun out" " Should I answer the door or can they tell I am tweeked? What if it's the cops?" are no longer part of my inner dialogue. Reality is much more easily able to grasp.
5. I now have healthy social interaction. Gone are the days I would isolate in my house, binge on speed and try to stay out of sight because I want to stay spun.
6. I take much better care of my teeth. Before I became engrossed in addiction, I always took good care of my teeth and, when I was using, that care and pride vanished.
7. I am no longer a sex crazed person like I would become when high on meth. I would watch the most bizarre porn for 12+hours at a time and that bad habit is gone too.
8. I can actual talk without my lips running a mile per minute, making me look like a weirdo.
9. I no longer feel the need to smoke 3 packs of smokes a day..saving me even more $$
10. I CAN SLEEP! Sleep really is a beautiful thing, and I love how I can just lay down wheneve.r and take a soothing nap if I choose.
11. My all around tone of voice sounds healthy again for once. When I was on my benders my voice had no emotion, no zest and no life to it.
12. I no longer have to worry about those god forsaken comedowns!
These things all take time, and you will eventually feel better. You just have to want it more than that
1. I have a lot more money now and I am able to do things that are fun w/o alterting my mind.
2. I've finally realized how wonderful it is to WANT to eat food, and remember now how much I loved food before I became spun out all the time.
3. My face has became much fuller now, which helps me to be less self-conscious about myself.
4. My paranoid delusions are no more! It's a relief that my mind is no longer suspicious. Thoughts like " They can tell im spun out" " Should I answer the door or can they tell I am tweeked? What if it's the cops?" are no longer part of my inner dialogue. Reality is much more easily able to grasp.
5. I now have healthy social interaction. Gone are the days I would isolate in my house, binge on speed and try to stay out of sight because I want to stay spun.
6. I take much better care of my teeth. Before I became engrossed in addiction, I always took good care of my teeth and, when I was using, that care and pride vanished.
7. I am no longer a sex crazed person like I would become when high on meth. I would watch the most bizarre porn for 12+hours at a time and that bad habit is gone too.
8. I can actual talk without my lips running a mile per minute, making me look like a weirdo.
9. I no longer feel the need to smoke 3 packs of smokes a day..saving me even more $$
10. I CAN SLEEP! Sleep really is a beautiful thing, and I love how I can just lay down wheneve.r and take a soothing nap if I choose.
11. My all around tone of voice sounds healthy again for once. When I was on my benders my voice had no emotion, no zest and no life to it.
12. I no longer have to worry about those god forsaken comedowns!
These things all take time, and you will eventually feel better. You just have to want it more than that
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