claire22
Bluelighter
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Been smoking almost daily for almost half a year now, every few days before then, not huge amounts but I certainly have a tolerance, anywhere from 1-3 grams a day. I'm not a really heavy user, but when I stop (usually forcibly, can't get etc) I come down with the most horrible symptoms. I have always had sleep issues (probably, now I think about it, why I smoked at night in the first place) but when I stop they are amplified plus 100. I will lay awake, slowly fuming, agitated, thoughts racing, aggressiveness rising, from anywhere from when the sun comes up to 12pm. I can't handle them, so I smoke to avoid them. I'm really at a loss of what to do - when I don't smoke I become so horrible to be around that I can't even be around myself.
My issue is not so much that I can't stop smoking, but that my mind and body will not allow me to 24 hours in!
I've been considering talking to a doctor, but I really & truly hate general practitioners, they won't understand or will not take me seriously. I'm really at a loss of what to do. I know I should just ride it out for the few weeks and toughen the fuck up but as soon as I hit that depressive anxious state I just cannot hold out any longer for fear of how enraged I may get (shit family living situation 'nuf said)
Any tips/advice for me???!
My issue is not so much that I can't stop smoking, but that my mind and body will not allow me to 24 hours in!
I've been considering talking to a doctor, but I really & truly hate general practitioners, they won't understand or will not take me seriously. I'm really at a loss of what to do. I know I should just ride it out for the few weeks and toughen the fuck up but as soon as I hit that depressive anxious state I just cannot hold out any longer for fear of how enraged I may get (shit family living situation 'nuf said)
Any tips/advice for me???!