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icantfightanymore

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I'm lost and dont know what to do anymore I have a husband that I can't talk to two older sons that love me but rather stay in the foster homes that there in a daughter that I love and fought like hell to get her back home with me and a son that I had a few years of his life but had to get away from cause his father was abusive I started smoking crack when he up and took my son to p.r.where I couldn't see or even talk to him I hurt so bad cause of what I put my daughter through cause I was getting high while I was pregnant with her my husband came into my life while I was out there getting high and even though he was with me he has never touched a drink or a drug ever I cry my self to sleep every night he makes me feel like because of. My past even with me getting ready to celebrate two years clean and sober in Nov that he has no faith in me anymore and deep down I feel like I'm just gonna say the he11 with it all and give up and go get high I dont know how or if I even want to fight anymore I'm hurting inside so bad that the more I hurt the more Iwant. To get high and its making me sick
 
why me

So me and my husband just had a huge fight and where I live thats grounds to get us kicked out and with my daughter with me I dont know what to do I dont want to go to a shelter because they will take her from me and as of tomorrow I already have my mind made up I'm going to take the biggest hit of crack that I can possibly find and hope and pray that it numbs me for good cause I have no more fight left and he isn't being the husband that he should be so im :(done
 
You might be able to get into a shelter with your daughter. Why would they take her from you? What city are you in or would you rather not say? I used to work at a shelter and we took moms with kids, just hang on. You have to fight the urge to get high.
 
I just found your other thread. How old is your little girl? Do you have any family or friends that you could stay with in case you get thrown out? You have to fight the urge to go and get high. What about your husband, where is he now?
 
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Hi there, I merged all of your threads together into one and moved it over to The Dark Side in hopes that some other members can help give some good advice. Don't take the drugs, try and keep your family together, don't give up hope. <3
 
As tough as it all seems (is) right where you are now, try to look beyond all the stress to what you want your life to look like. You can get there but it will be so much easier if you stay away from the temptation to get high and just keep taking positive baby steps in the right direction.Get support outside of your marriage--friends, AA/NA, counseling, whatever you have available.

When you are in the midst of a crisis, panicked thinking is your worst enemy. Try to breathe and stay focused on your goals. Give yourself credit for whatever you are doing to stay sober and to remedy the fallout from the fight and don't beat yourself up for feeling weak.
 
I really hope your ok ! please let me know what you have decided. no matter what it is<> your drug of choice will not make it any better. but you know that. im praying for you and ur family ! aloha from hawaii
 
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