Ok so i was dating a girl for 8 months the first 6 months were amazing but i always felt like she was hiding something. Anyways come to find out she cheated on me within the first week we were dating. I found this information out 6 months in so i decided to try to make things work after that. It never was the same after that I wasnt even the same person anymore i still loved her but it seemed i was purposeley pushing her away and i wasnt even a boyfriend to her anymore i pretty much chose drugs over her and after 2 months of that we broke up.
I was in the worst depression ever for 3 months after that i honestley cried every day and even attempted suicide. I just felt like i lost everything when i lost her even though alot of it was my choice because i couldent look past the cheating and lying constantly about it for 6 months. If she had just told me she cheated and felt some guilt im pretty sure i could of forgave her but she never owned up to i had to pretty much pry at her to get the truth and when she finally did own up she tried saying that she slept with him because she didnt think we would work out because i do pills and pretty much blamed me for her cheating on me.
Anyways idk what to do here Im having the hardest time moving on because i do still love her. We have been broke up for 6 months and ive hung out with another girl once and havent had sex since we broke up. I honestley just have been getting high every day on bathsalts, meth and pills and already lost alot to the drugs but it feels like i have no one or anything else. Someone help me please what should i do how do i be happy for once how do i meet someone else?
please any advice is appreciated.
I was in the worst depression ever for 3 months after that i honestley cried every day and even attempted suicide. I just felt like i lost everything when i lost her even though alot of it was my choice because i couldent look past the cheating and lying constantly about it for 6 months. If she had just told me she cheated and felt some guilt im pretty sure i could of forgave her but she never owned up to i had to pretty much pry at her to get the truth and when she finally did own up she tried saying that she slept with him because she didnt think we would work out because i do pills and pretty much blamed me for her cheating on me.
Anyways idk what to do here Im having the hardest time moving on because i do still love her. We have been broke up for 6 months and ive hung out with another girl once and havent had sex since we broke up. I honestley just have been getting high every day on bathsalts, meth and pills and already lost alot to the drugs but it feels like i have no one or anything else. Someone help me please what should i do how do i be happy for once how do i meet someone else?
please any advice is appreciated.
