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[Successfuladdict]

I'm 45 years old and have been doing cocaine and drinking more than most. Recently I've graduated to crystal meth...not good. I make a six figure salary and have tons of responsibilities...I was born with lots of talent and looks ,,,my father left me when I was 5...he decided to be a career bank robber,,,got caught and did 20 + years,,,I played every sport in high school,,,,graduated and played professional golf for 10 years...I'm gifted in a lot of ways...I know this sounds a bit arrogant ....I try to be respectful to others and want to be treated the same. With that being said, I'm am the most self destructive person you will ever meet...I will go out of my way to make my life miserable ....5 years ago I hit a girl head on in a car crash...I was hammered...almost killed her...did 2 years in state prison....swore to myself I would never do such a low life thing again!!! Last night I rear ended a car at a stop light and went jail on suspicion of DUI ....I'm a proud man who has not spoken with his own mother in years...I have a beautiful little 5 yr old boy who loves his daddy,,,,I have never asked for help because I thought I could do it on my own just like everything else. I can't !!!!! Somebody please help me!

 

[Tommyboy]

I'm going to move this over to The Dark Side.

Anon --> TDS

 

[ad lib]

Drug use and addiction doesn't care how much money you make, what you look like, or what your social status is. It doesn't discriminate. We start using and get addicted because of a weakness and vulnerability we have due to everyone's natural imperfection.

Usually, drug (ab)use is triggered by something. Are you able to think of what may have triggered your usage? Is it the void you felt when your father "left"? If we search deep within ourselves we will find answers to that.

Yore doing the right thing by asking for help. You realize you have an issue and it needs to be addressed. You mention you're a proud person, and that's okay, I am too. But you have to humble yourself and reach out for more help. What are your thoughts on therapy to treat the underlying causes of your drug addiction? Have you tried quitting cold turkey? If not, you may want to consider rehabilitation at this point in your journey. If you can't do it for yourself, do it for your son. Do you want him to grow up with an absent father like you did? Of course not! You want to be able to set the best example for him.

If there's a will then there's a way. If you truly want to get better, you have to find a way to do so. Realize you're at that point where it's out if control. It's not a shameful thing to ask for help- it actually shows character and strength because you want to make a better life for yourself and family.

 

[Vaya]

None of us, if we are truly addicted, can turn it around based purely on our own will-power. To echo what was said, you were most certainly right in asking for help, and there is absolutely no shame in doing so.

What opinions do you have on fellowships of real-life people who, you may be surprised to learn, have found themselves in near-precisely the same situation?

Knowing, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that you are not (nor ever will be) alone is arguably one of the most profound keystones in building for yourself a new archway through which to traverse.