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HighlandSwedger

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Im 17 ive had a habbit for 2 years, i've been going from rock bottom to over the edge for almost 6 months relapsing every other second week...My longest stretch thus far is a month and have been sniffing 8mb sometimes 4mb a day for 2 weeks, and this week ive had nothing. But im so fucking depressed, i dont see the point. My mum was a junky all her life i grew up seeing it and i was happy when she was dealing. She was always there emtionaly but now shes always out enjoying life (clean) and im stuck with a habbit and even though im clean i feel all alone. I dont know what to do. Im so fucking depressed thats all i can say, ive pissed my life away chasing 10rs. All i can think about is getting a hit, and how theres no point staying clean. Please give me some kind words or something cause im totaly at a low point man. Peace, Highland Swedger.
 
give your self 10 more days and I would be willing to put money down that you'll feel the best you have in years. Yeah, I know 10 days might as well be 100 days. Know the feeling, but it's not. If Im wrong you can just get lit again. you got it.
 
Your mind is still developing and you need to know that the way you feel right now is not the way you will always feel. Drugs alter your brain way more than you realize, and it will take time for you to feel better again. Do yourself a favor and try to clean up for more than a week or two at a time. If you can do that much, you can stay clean for even longer! Getting past the first few days is the hardest and you've already done that much, AND you've done it many times. You can definitely conquer this beast, it sounds like. Just know that you will definitely get to feeling better if you stick to staying sober for more than a few weeks, that is the bottom line. If you need anyone to talk to about this, you can PM me. I know EXACTLY how you feel and I have been in your shoes before if that's any consolation. Good luck.
 
Thanks alot for the support i dont often have access to come on here, I fucking relapsed today and bought one skanky bag. It was pathetic in size and quality. I don't know why i done it it wasnt even satasfying. I wont rattle tommoro but i will not use again, i am fairly strong in this decision. I don't know how many times i've heard this but i mean it, hah. I actualy feel like im scitzophrenic, i know that sounds...Scitzo but i really do. Might have time to post later ron'. Speak soon, thanks guys i appreicate it more than you know.
 
Maybe this relapse was a good thing. You gave in, and it didn't even satisfy you. Think about that next time you're about to do it. If you stick it out, and I'm not going to lie, it's going to be shitty, you will come out of all of this feeling amazing.

In the mean time, find something to replace that drug. My uncle got off drugs not too long ago. He was a frequent heroin user. He told me that every time he felt the urge for it, he got dressed and took a jog. He would jog for hours until he didn't want to shoot up anymore. You don't have to go running, but replace it with a hobby.

I wish you the best of luck my friend. I know you can do it (:
 
I was taking acid for the weekend, and my pal that sold it ODed, Another troop gone. And obviously the acid is completly unabalible in inverness because no one gets it ffs. But prayers for Jackson, a very good guy. heart of gold.
 
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