noreason41
Bluelighter
My name's Stefan, i'm 19 living in Melbourne in Aus.
I've been feeling particularly depressed over the last 2 months (more then just the normal miserable life i lead) - and have started seeing a psychiatrist for severe social anxiety, which is leading to depression.
My problem is that despite what he tells me, despite the benzo prescription i've got, despite all the guaranteed evidence that this 'could' work....i can't believe it.
I can't get out of that hopeless feeling, every time i try to overcome my social phobia, i fail.
Every time i've tried to talk to a girl, I fail.
Theirs nothing i can do about it, i'm not sure if the above even makes sense. But i just see my life as one failure after another, followed by another failure....and then all of a sudden their seems like theirs hope (ie:last 7 days), it proves to be false hope and i just fail again.
I've never actually planned suicide, but i've considered it too many times to remember. I consider it virtually every hour every day now, but i know i just can't act on it. I'm weak for that.
What's the point of trying when it only ever leads to failure?
I've been feeling particularly depressed over the last 2 months (more then just the normal miserable life i lead) - and have started seeing a psychiatrist for severe social anxiety, which is leading to depression.
My problem is that despite what he tells me, despite the benzo prescription i've got, despite all the guaranteed evidence that this 'could' work....i can't believe it.
I can't get out of that hopeless feeling, every time i try to overcome my social phobia, i fail.
Every time i've tried to talk to a girl, I fail.
Theirs nothing i can do about it, i'm not sure if the above even makes sense. But i just see my life as one failure after another, followed by another failure....and then all of a sudden their seems like theirs hope (ie:last 7 days), it proves to be false hope and i just fail again.
I've never actually planned suicide, but i've considered it too many times to remember. I consider it virtually every hour every day now, but i know i just can't act on it. I'm weak for that.
What's the point of trying when it only ever leads to failure?