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Help With Suboxone

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Just have a few questions about how to get this stuff prescribed. Here is my situation, I get about 50 dollars a week from my mom and every week I use all that money on 30mg roxis. This has been going on for a while now and my family is beginning to see changes in me but they don't know what is going on. I can't stop buying them, it's like every week I spend my money thinking next week I'll be able to take a break but when the time comes I just cave in and buy myself some more. I am trying to get help but I don't know what steps to take.

I have insurance but I don't know how to find a doctor in my area that will see me. The most important thing to me is that my family does not find out about me trying to get better. I want to do it on my own. I should also mention that I have been diagnosed with social anxiety disorder and maniac depression. Just putting that out there to say that I don't only do the roxis to get high, they help me deal with my problems. I know this is not the right way to go about getting my shit together and that is why I've come here for help. I have no one else to talk to about things like this.

I wanna get off of these roxis but I need help with the following things;
1) Finding a doctor in my area who has a license to prescribe suboxone.
2) What should I say to the doctor? Should I be completely honest or should I leave some aspects of my situation out?
3) It is important to me that the doc keeps my family out of this matter, how should I go about doing that?

Thank you very much for who ever read and replied.
 
I honestly would recommend going down a different route. Suboxone should not be taken lightly, it's very strong and you would be only making things worse for yourself.

Price discussion isn't allowed, but I can't see you getting more than 3 roxi's if $50 is all you're spending. Do you use daily or just a few days a week? Even if you're taking three everyday, I still would probably recommend trying other ways to stop.

How long has this been going on? You're clearly in the grips of a mental addiction, but if you go on suboxone you're easily going to push yourself into physical addiction. You'll also raise your tolerance for no reason and with an opiate/opioid that frankly wouldn't be worth be the high.

There are so many other healthier routes to choose. Have you ever considered seeing a therapist/counselor?
 
I am actually seeing a psychiatrist for my social anxiety thing and my depression. She scripts me SSRIs that don't do jack fucking shit. The only script she gives me that helps is 0.5mg klonopin and she wont even raise the dose because shes so fucking confident that these SSRIs are gonna fix me. I am also just now considering seeing a therapist just to vent. Basically I buy 4 roxis every week and I eat them all at once. Then the following week until I get some cash again I am just freaking out going crazy. I can't sleep at all.

When I am sober I stay up till sunrise then I can finally sleep and I end up waking up at like 4-5pm feeling like a scumbag. This has been going on for a year or so at first I started just like anyone else trying opiates for the first time. I loved it, thought I could control it, and then it fucked me over in the end. The only reason I thought about suboxone first because I can get em in street and when I am freaking out really bad I just let a 8mg dissolve under my tongue and it has me good for 3-4 days. So I was thinking that was a good way to take care of this but I am open to ANY suggestions. I just have to stop fucking myself and even worse doing harm to my family.
 
So you are taking 4 X 30 mg's of roxicodone one time a week, is that correct? If so then I agree with what has been said about getting on suboxone, DON'T. You don't have a physical addiction that would require anything like sub, you just need to break the cycle and not buy any roxi's next week.

You mention living at home and receiving $50 weekly. If you don't mind me asking, how old are you? Just trying to determine exactly how to address the insurance part of your question if you decide to ask a doctor for sub. If covered under your parents insurance and under 16 I think they may be informed, but that could be incorrect.

At any rate, I don't think sub is the answer. Just quit while you are ahead of the game and save yourself some heartache down the road.
 
Yes I am taking about 90-120mg a week. I am 18 years old. I think I am covered under my mother's insurance but I have my own card with my name on it. Also I think that once your 18+ doctors are obligated not to disclose any information of their patients. I am very open to the advice you guys are offering and I thank you for it. The last thing I want to do is make my situation worse. I don't know much about suboxone besides what I mentioned earlier; how I can take 8mg and the cravings stop for 3-4 days. If you guys are saying that I don't need to resort to subs yet what is it I should do? Once I get that 50 I just can't help myself. You are saying quit while I'm ahead but that is the whole problem I can't "just" quit. Anyways thank you guys for responding. I am going to update my progress on the situation and I would really appreciate it if you guys can keep posting and giving me advice.

P.S. WSB15; Just wanted to thank you for helping me locate a sub doctor if it comes down to it.
 
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I'm not sure what it is you are trying to accomplish.

Are you wanting to quit taking the Roxicodone altogether? I don't think you can have a physical addiction if you are taking this one time a week, but I may be wrong. I would think it more of a psycological addiction and I think going on suboxone would simply lead to a physical addiction that could end up creating many more problems than you would like!

Yeah, at 18, I don't think you would have to worry about parental disclosure.

I still think the easiest thing is to simply break the routine.

Let us know how things progress.
 
Suboxone is mainly used for people who are physically dependant. It helps with my heroin withdrawals and once i stayed on it for a couple months the cravings for heroin went almost completely away. So subs can help with cravings you are having. But do you really want to get physically and mentally addicted to suboxone? pros and cons I guess.
 
It sounds like you are barely using. If you get on suboxone you will be making a HUGE mistake.

If all you have is $50 a week, yes you might have a problem, but IMO that by no means warrants something like a superpowerful opiate to "help."

All you have to do get a bank account, have your mom deposit the $50 every week, and limit you rself to only CC transactions, then she can see every pruchase.

If you are only buying $50 a week of oxy..I mean even if you get them super cheap, you can 100000000000000001% go cold turkey man,.you just need to tell your self its tim to quit.
 
I can help you.I know how to get you help if you still need it.I am thinking you have a very addictive personality.Let em know what state your in and Ill see if there is a free program in your closest city.
 
Honestly, you might think that all of us don't know anything about your personal situation and that we're wrong and you need sub but your wrong. We might not know everything about what your going through, but there's a good chance at least a couple of the people who have responded have had personal experience with sub. I've been on and off it for over a year and a half. When I first started sub I spent around 50-80$ a day on oxy, and was doing about 120mg this was after a year and a half of daily use. Since then I've gone on and off but my tolerance has steadily increased. the last time I relapsed about 5 months ago i was doing 400mg a day and spending over 200$.

What I'm getting at is that sub can be beneficial or it can just prolong things. You may have a mental addiction but you DO NOT have a physical addiction.. If you go 5-6 days in between using you can't have a physical addiction, and for that matter if you aren't lying and stealing to buy more you probably don't have that bad of a mental addiction. I'm telling you right now, with your best interest in mind that suboxone is a huge mistake. Seriously. If you want to be on opiates every day for a long time then hey go for it, but if you actually want to get off of them it would be the biggest mistake you can make.

Not to mention you need to be in WD for a sub doc to prescribe you subs (atleast all the places i've been in CA) so any sub doc with half a brain wouldn't prescribe them to you. I sincerely hope you can find a solution to your problems and that you can find the strength to give it up before you develope a real addiction. I was in the same place your in 5 years ago and I wish more than anything that I had given it up then.
 
I have the perfect solution for you my man cut off the source. Tell your dealer to go fuck himself or simply just dont call him. Like everyone else has said the subs will just make everything your feeling right now much worse. My best advice would be to spend the monies on some weed and get really baked for a few weeks and then maybe your cravings will be gone. Suboxone definitely isnt the answer but you may also be interested in reading up on what klonopin does to your brain in regards to addiction. (Ive been taking it for about 6 years now and im convinced benzos are 10x more addictive than heroin.)
 
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