help with opiate addiction

[#bikelife941]

so im i have a problem with using but ive slowed myself down to where i dont take any for days. but those days all i think about is pills. ive quit for months and then just went rite bak into my same rut. stealing, selling everything i can but still trying to stop for my family and the fact i hate picking my face and weight loss. wen im on a normal dosage like taking a certain mg a day or watever i can carry weight even gain weight. i feel happier but i do snap. i feel normal my body feels normal. i dont have any "real issues" for pain but i do have lower back pain that cant be pinpointed and its been years. nothing wrong with my bones. also bad knees due to motorcycle wrecks and jumping off roofs at 6 years old. i self medicate and love to get high. wat should i do i was interested in methadone clinics but im not a booter. i have done heroin but i dnt want to go down the road of needles. i get very into drugs and i get far away. i truly dnt want to quit i wish i had a way to regulate. street drugs r expensive and cause me to wanna rob.

 

[pillman1224]

on your off days try to keep yourself busy i am in the same position as you except i dont have any connects, i dont rob(unless i am ganking a few pills from someones house when im there). if you want to get real help i think you should go to the dark side though.