help us help each other

[damenohito]

please don't sugar coat it, and please don't generalize. understand that i'm not giving easy answers, but i don't want this to be enabling either: this thread could save lives. amapola was there for me when no one else weren't. i break gramatic b/c if i wrote 'wasn't' it would mean someone is here for me now. let's get this straight: i am a junky. i may always be a junky. i am ok with being a junky, but those who love me are not. i am ok with being a junky and i am trying to create a support group here...with people that want to maintain their persuits yet be honest to their true selves. on thing living in cx taught me was i was already dead. live life. don;t fuck your ppl over, give them something before you go. i can't compensate for dark, dark, shit; but i hope you have something to add to someone could grow from your words.

 

[painenduser]

I am sorry, I think I came late to the game here. Is this post a reply to another thread in here? I am not sure where you are coming from with this thread. Forgive me if I seem nieve here. I don't really know of any addicts / junkies whatever here that sugar coat anything. Most people I have seen here are pretty upfront and honest about their addictions and alot of people like myself do use these forums as a support group. I personally do because I do not believe in the strength of people in the 12 step rooms. I found that I had all kinds of trouble relating to people there, but since I found the people here at Blue I have found this place to be very therapeutic and tend to use the spaces here as a support group. I have also met some new great friends here. People of whom I can relate too and people who are similar in age and history. Again sorry if I am missing something. Good luck bro.

 

[herbavore]

Hi, Dameonohito, and welcome! The Dark Side is a very specific forum for people who are struggling with mental health issues, traumas in their lives that may or may not contribute to or trigger addictive behavior as well as many people that are trying very hard to overcome addiction. It is also a forum for people that are in recovery. We reserve this space on Bluelight for mutual support for those issues. If you read the Dark Side Guidelines which are in a bold heading at the very top of the page it might do a better job of explaining this. You might find better support from another forum like Basic Drug Discussion. I am not going to move this thread yet because I think that you might be looking for support for whatever else is going on in your life, even though you do not feel ready to try to quit your DOC. Be aware, however, that if the thread becomes triggering that it may be moved elsewhere on Bluelight.

I hope this makes sense to you. If, not please feel free to PM me or any of the other moderators.

 

[Vaya]

i am ok with being a junky and i am trying to create a support group here...with people that want to maintain their persuits yet be honest to their true selves.

As a former heroin addict I can relate to the message you're trying to convey with the words "I'm ok with being a junky." Most definitely. It's so important to understand that we will simply never be able to use drugs like that responsibly (and I do believe that such a thing as responsible diamorphine use exists).

I guess what I'm having trouble understanding is how environment in The Dark Side might not lend itself to a "support group" functionality, at least in some sense? Do we paint a picture of having to deceive yourself in order to achieve your pursuits? If so, I'd definitely like to hear about it... after all, I would personally not feel very safe in an environment where I was encouraged to fool myself about myself! (as herbavore mentioned above, if it's not something you want stated publicly please feel free to PM any of us at any time!)

~ vaya

 

[DexterMeth]

Use the knowledge of the void to your advantage. It's easy to be negative. Love conquers all.

 

[BrahamCracker]

If you wanna be a junky, that means "for now" you want to be a junky. Nothing is forever, i felt the same way (except i never tried a hard drug twice). I felt like i'd never stop smoking weed and was always seeing what i could try next. Now, i'm looking for a full time job and just over 3 weeks clean. I respect people enough to let them do what they want, and think if that's what you want go for it. Just NEVER say never.

As long as you're at peace with yourself, and can accept who you really are, then be that person bro. Just don't steal my tv