Help ! Started taking heroin, addicted, dont know what to do

[eXalin]

I have been taking drugs on a regular basis since I was 11. my parents, brother and uncle have all been heroin addicts. I am now 19 and am recovering from a drug induced psychosis. I am addicted to anti-psychotics. I was contemplating trying heroin for months and finally found some homeless people who scored for me, I have since been hanging around with them and they are all a lot older than me and I had my first smoke of heroin and have since been using on a daily basis and had my first IV injection. I've watched literally every interview/show/film and am currently reading your first book. you are a huge influence in my life.

I currently have nothing going in my life and drugs are my escape and after trying heroin it seems like the best feeling in the world. I feel like I need to be locked away and I really need help before it gets worse, what can I do.

 

[xstayfadedx]

I feel you.... I'm 19 as well and struggle with heroin use... started using it because I was depressed and needed a way out. Heroin use is also my own way of self destruction. Anyways before heroin I was addicted to oxycontin and it was bad. I was doing all sorts of criminal activity and getting into a lot of trouble... so one day I decided to taper down for the most part and then eventually I quit it all together (cold turkey) I then got involved in some NA classes and erased all my connects from my phone... and then I set goals for myself. However, shit happened and I wasn't going to NA again and after some time I ended up relapsing on opiates but this time with heroin.

I still am so upset I started heroin and I can only just imagine how you feel.... Yet, there's still hope for me and you. We are still young and have so much more left to live. Let's not overdose and become just another kid who died from heroin. I know you don't want to be just another family member hooked on heroin either... we just have too much potential. I see that you want help and we are all here to help you. However, you should also start doing some things on your own like deleting all your connects. You should also find a detox in your area if you can't kick cold turkey andI know you can't probably go to rehab... but at least start going to NA. Also if you still live with your family who uses dope you need to get out of that environment asap!! They will only bring you down... the situation period can make anyone want to use.

Do you not know of anyone else you could stay with? Friends or clean family members? If not maybe you can find some assistance in your area and people who run NA could also help you figure something out. So many people will open their arms out for others if they see something there. Anyways I hope you get clean and really go to your doctors or a hospital about thr anti-psychotics... that's not good. I hope you aren't taking more than you need either.

Other than that, we all can get clean... we just not only have to want to but we need to take action as well... you're not just going to wake up clean one day, it's going to take a lot of work. It may seem hard but it's worth it... don't lose anymore precious time to this addiction. I wish you the best and pm if you ever need to.

P.s. sorry if there's mispellings ect but my keyboard lags hardcore.

 

[neversickanymore]

Hey exalin.. The first step to getting out of any whole is to stop digging:D It is in your best interest to try and tackle this now, it will only get much worse... if you are just beginning to iv, you are at a time when OD is way to common. It won't get anny easier.. of you want a glimpse of how your life will be if you continue down that road.. http://www.bluelight.ru/vb/threads/...e-If-v-Oops-I-nodded-with-the-needle-still-in i wish you all the best.. there are allot of people at BL that can offer good advise.. mine is quit now.

 

[odgirl]

If you truly want help for free there's an excellent place in michigan. Google " grace centers of hope" christian and high success rate. Best chance for ppl ive seem godspeed

 

[oxyschottin]

I'm with you although I'm also only 19 I've battled opiate addiction since age 14. I have a chronic pain illness that I began self medicating for at 14 I had smoked weed since 11 n by 14 my tolerance for pot had risen above its pain stopping powers. I had a grandmother who was I'll n whenever her vicodin scripts Expired we stored them. So I began using them for pain but I enjoyed the escape from stress almost more than the pain reliving aspect.

By age 16 I was injecting oxy and morphine. With my illness it wasn't hard to acquire legal prescriptions as well with street connections I was able to maintain a very heavy habit. After of year of hardship ( death of many friends due to overdose, losing my family, legal trouble trips to rehab) I picked up a heavy heroin habit for the next 2 years( using up to a gram iv a day). I successfully kicked heroin only to have my illness go out of control and take over my life. After several hospitalizations I was put back on pain management and due my to my history y tolerance pushed me back to the needle. Now at age 19 I'm stuck using 75 MCG fentynal patches and over 250 mg of morphine iv a day. What j would give to go back and never use an opiate...but I can't and that's that. I beg you and I'm not trying to act like an old junkie becuz I'm the same age as you but I've been battling this disease of addiction for 5 years now.

It seems you have a chance not being too deep but trust me this road is one that leads to nothing but lo neliness and grief. Please pm me if you'd like to chat further as I'd be willing to go more in depth about what's worked for me. But please continue to post and share with us whatever you'd like.

Have you considered methadone maintenance? Or possibly rehab, even out patient groups can be very helpful? If you're religious AA/NA works wonders for some people. Beating addiction alone is near impossible but with the right people and support its possible. The best weeks of the 3 years have been when I was clean.