Help please!

[Benzopiaddy]

I'm on
24mg of sub's-8mgx3 daily
70mg vyvance
90mg adderall IR-30mgx3 daily
4,000mg gabapentin-800mgx5daily
20mg Valium-10mgx2daily
500mg depakote-nightly
0.1mg clonodine-x2daily
20mg saphris- nightly
400mg seroquil IR- nightly

All prescription, same doctor. I've been opiate free for the past two and a half years and they said once I got off the drugs that life would get better and I am the most unhappy unmotivated that I have ever been in my entire life I can't even get out of bed and get through the day without my meds and that's just to get me through work also trying to be a father on top of it his mother is incarcerated and I just don't know why I still feel like this I was a completely functioning drug addict but I was a junkie but now that I'm clean except for some weed I can't even get enough motivation to clean my damn house or even get off the couch I'm the most unhappy and emotionally unstable that I've ever been and life is just gotten worse since I've gotten clean from fentanyl heroin cocaine and benzos does anyone have any advice does life get better or am I on Too Many Meds that are f****** with my head

 

[Sub_me_]

Dude how are you functioning on all of that your tolerance must have been through the roof. Life does get better some people need meds to do it like myself others don't. Try tampering down some of meds by very little and see how you feel you can for sure start with the 3 subs a day you dont need that much. Honestly it looks like some of the meds are literally canceling eachother out like the Adderall Valium combo.

 

[tati_5657]

yeah, i am shocked that you have been put on this cocktail. i was on meds from age 11-25. the only thing that helped me get off meds was ayahuasca, but very hard to come by unless you know the right people.

also certain psychiatrists out there are willing to help people taper off meds. have you thought about meeting with a new psych? it's hard to answer your question about whether or not life gets easier. in some ways my life off medications is easier, in some ways not. i think people who are proned to begin emotionally unstable, will always struggle more than those who aren't. i am sorry to hear your wife is incarcerated and you are in so much pain.