Good advice....
When playing with narcotics, of any kind, its important to know exactly what you are dealing with. In an emergency room, dilaudid, morphine, and demerol are administered for pain which is uncontrolled. I have had all three at am emergency room, owing to the fact that I get recurrent kidney stones. I can tell you, even at a hospital, a mistake was made that overdosed me. What had happened, was that my iv tube had a kink, and they gave me three shots of dilaudid, and after each shot, they asked if my pain was any better, which it wasn't. I began to writhe around, and apparently I unkinked the IV tube and was hit with what could be called a death rush. I couldn't breath. No how, no way could I make my diaphragm function. I couldn't talk, or gesture with my arms. The last thing I noticed was that my heart monitor was reading around 30 beats per minute and that my Blood pressure had dropped to about 80/35. I passed out cold, and if I had died, I wouldn't have know it. Apparently my heart stopped, which triggered an alarm for the staff that brought them into action to resuscitate me, and to give me an opiod antidote.
I say these things, because I want you to realize with narcotics, you will die a horrendous death, if you aren't careful. Believe it or not, I'd strongly suggest getting hold of an antidote kit, which contains the drug narcan. There are a million names for it, but many heroin clinics can give you a kit. Call around, and you should be able to find one. Believe it or not, just this year, deaths from Opiates became the leading cause for males between 18 and 25. I do know Massachusetts hands the kits out like candy, and it has been shown to save lives. So, let's say you get your morphine, and have a antidote kit right next to you. The problem is, if you need it, you won't be able to administer it yourself, as you'll be doing the "nod" as they say. Have a friend available to you, when you decide to experiment with narcotics that is fully competent and capable of giving you the shot.
My best advice to you is to stay away from narcotics is to stay away from them completely unless you get a prescription for a valid medical problem When you take narcotics, you get a euphoric high. Its not a "free" hi, so to speak, but rather you are manipulating your brain to flood your head with dopamine, which is the "feel good" neurotransmitter. Well, this comes at a price. When you brain expends its supply of dopamine, you will go through a period of depression, sometimes for days, weeks, months, or even years. I have seen it, and experienced it firsthand. Walk away from opiates, as they will suck your soul out of you.
I am sorry to hear about your OD but very glad you survived!