Hi, my name is Mike and im 19 years old. a little about my past drug use is ive been smoking pot regularly (4-5 times a week) since i was 17 and definitely knowledgeable about it and an enthusiast. im very passionate about it, its my one love. since 18 i experienced with mdma for over a year and a half no problems and spaced out my rolls maybe a couple times a month sometimes months apart, once a week sometimes nevermorethan 3 times in a month, just did it for special occasions so it depended but never over did it too much. always fun no problems.
SO HERES THE INCIDENT.
about 3 months ago i was going to a two day music festival and me and my friends bought some "mdma" for the festival so far so good until we get there and pop off in the bathroom and wait around the festival chillin till it kicks in. turns out this stuff IS NOT MDMA, MOLLY ECSTASY W/E U WANNA CALL IT AT ALLLL. to this day idk what it was thats why i put quotes earlier but i think it was just some of the dirtiest bathroom chemicals mixed up with a little something else to cause an altered state n thats it. the roll if we wanna even call it that just made our pupils dilate, alter us where we werent sober but DEFINATELY not euphoric and enjoyable. just a really dirty wired feeling and when i say profuse sweating.... i mean not a single dry spot on my tee shirt or shorts. it was disgusting never sweated so much in my life even actually rolling in the clubs jumping around was less. so madly dissapointed as the type of person i am wasting a bunch of money, i tried to make the best of it and tried turning up with it since in my mind at the time being SO stupid was this was atleast better than being dead sober i guessed so i proceeded thru the night probably taking a gram throughout the night.
as people who have xp with mdma know, smoking weed during ur roll or when ur coming down (atleast with me, all my friends n people i know agree) keeps you rolling and wired n feeling it. so of course since i loveeee weed, after the festival we go to the hotel and smoke a ton more (im sweating in the hotel room after big rips cuz im still fucked up wired.) so everyone decides to finally get some rest cuz we have day two of the festival in the morning,I DONT SLEEP LITERALLY 1 second thru the night just laying there tingling from w/e drug n weed combo eyes closed from like 3AM to 9am. BEING RETARDED, instead of letting it get thru my system i cant turn down a smoke sesh and everyone wakes n bakes n of course i join in n feel wired sweating thru day two! till finally mid day we hadnt smoked since the morning b4 we left n i grab some beers n finally feel better. n calm down.
SO HERES MY PROBLEM.
ever since that night, EVERYTIME i smoke weed i dont get a normal weed high, it literally dilates my pupils and i have a nasty wired tingling opiate like feeling with twitches and tremors very similar but not sweaty etc as that night and have fell out (passed out) 5 of the 8 times ive smoked since then.and i have neverrr passed out before, even dab after dab after dab im talking a couple hits feeling this n i have to stop its so uncomfortable. n im not an amatuer, dont say ur "too high" or im trippin something like that i smoked nearly everyday for two years and 100 percent into the cannabis culture im experienced n know what high is like and its NOT a high.
other symptoms: depersonalization i think i have, low libido, no feel good during orgasm or even drinking, anxiety and depression which ive NEVER had before im the happiest guy (used to) so its crazy.
BTW IM REALLY SORRY THIS IS SO LONG,i just tried to give detail to help you help me. ask me any questions. most updated info of me i had to unenroll in my college courses this semester till this is figured out and treated, have neurologist appointment monday sep. 8th, 4 weeks sober from weed 2 weeks from alcohol and scared im gonna be like this forever. been taking vitamins exercising etc that u can think of to get better faster. weed has been my one drug n love and looking forward to smoking throughout my lifetime with my friends girlfriends etc and its different if i just had to take a break but it scares me that i cant PHYSICALLY get high, even if i wanted to cause my body wont n scared i will never be able to. my only theory is that i really badly damaged my seretonin n dopamine recepetors or something n continually smoking is not letting them heal properly n releasing them when there is hardly any there. i figure months of soberness and key vitamins and exercise will get me right and normal and hopefully be able to go back to my life.
PLEASE AND THANK YOU FOR A REPLY
SO HERES THE INCIDENT.
about 3 months ago i was going to a two day music festival and me and my friends bought some "mdma" for the festival so far so good until we get there and pop off in the bathroom and wait around the festival chillin till it kicks in. turns out this stuff IS NOT MDMA, MOLLY ECSTASY W/E U WANNA CALL IT AT ALLLL. to this day idk what it was thats why i put quotes earlier but i think it was just some of the dirtiest bathroom chemicals mixed up with a little something else to cause an altered state n thats it. the roll if we wanna even call it that just made our pupils dilate, alter us where we werent sober but DEFINATELY not euphoric and enjoyable. just a really dirty wired feeling and when i say profuse sweating.... i mean not a single dry spot on my tee shirt or shorts. it was disgusting never sweated so much in my life even actually rolling in the clubs jumping around was less. so madly dissapointed as the type of person i am wasting a bunch of money, i tried to make the best of it and tried turning up with it since in my mind at the time being SO stupid was this was atleast better than being dead sober i guessed so i proceeded thru the night probably taking a gram throughout the night.
as people who have xp with mdma know, smoking weed during ur roll or when ur coming down (atleast with me, all my friends n people i know agree) keeps you rolling and wired n feeling it. so of course since i loveeee weed, after the festival we go to the hotel and smoke a ton more (im sweating in the hotel room after big rips cuz im still fucked up wired.) so everyone decides to finally get some rest cuz we have day two of the festival in the morning,I DONT SLEEP LITERALLY 1 second thru the night just laying there tingling from w/e drug n weed combo eyes closed from like 3AM to 9am. BEING RETARDED, instead of letting it get thru my system i cant turn down a smoke sesh and everyone wakes n bakes n of course i join in n feel wired sweating thru day two! till finally mid day we hadnt smoked since the morning b4 we left n i grab some beers n finally feel better. n calm down.
SO HERES MY PROBLEM.
ever since that night, EVERYTIME i smoke weed i dont get a normal weed high, it literally dilates my pupils and i have a nasty wired tingling opiate like feeling with twitches and tremors very similar but not sweaty etc as that night and have fell out (passed out) 5 of the 8 times ive smoked since then.and i have neverrr passed out before, even dab after dab after dab im talking a couple hits feeling this n i have to stop its so uncomfortable. n im not an amatuer, dont say ur "too high" or im trippin something like that i smoked nearly everyday for two years and 100 percent into the cannabis culture im experienced n know what high is like and its NOT a high.
other symptoms: depersonalization i think i have, low libido, no feel good during orgasm or even drinking, anxiety and depression which ive NEVER had before im the happiest guy (used to) so its crazy.
BTW IM REALLY SORRY THIS IS SO LONG,i just tried to give detail to help you help me. ask me any questions. most updated info of me i had to unenroll in my college courses this semester till this is figured out and treated, have neurologist appointment monday sep. 8th, 4 weeks sober from weed 2 weeks from alcohol and scared im gonna be like this forever. been taking vitamins exercising etc that u can think of to get better faster. weed has been my one drug n love and looking forward to smoking throughout my lifetime with my friends girlfriends etc and its different if i just had to take a break but it scares me that i cant PHYSICALLY get high, even if i wanted to cause my body wont n scared i will never be able to. my only theory is that i really badly damaged my seretonin n dopamine recepetors or something n continually smoking is not letting them heal properly n releasing them when there is hardly any there. i figure months of soberness and key vitamins and exercise will get me right and normal and hopefully be able to go back to my life.
PLEASE AND THANK YOU FOR A REPLY
