what kind of dose of addies are you takin per day man? I know how that shit can be. It's mostly the physical discomfort feeding your mental lust for the way your personality is altered by the shit. I take 2-3 week breaks from the stuff from time to time beecause addiction runs in my family like a motherfucker. (Also when I'm back on them I can take more XD I'm no saint) The first few days are shit..I got nothing to say, my own ideas feel lame and not worth saying out loud..other peoples ideas seem even lamer. And if I'm stoned I pretty much just focus on my body buzz but I'm not giggly or anything. Well Once you stick with being off it, your brain will adjust itself..like for real man, I know it seems impossible to you right now, but something happens in that sweet ass organ
What I'm saying is a life without painful, physically dependancy is better than a life of constant highs and lows. And you know you just may be able to keep it purely recreational, and still enjoy your occasional binge, but you'd be a rarity...I say just take MDMA at the SWEETEST parties of the year. (not too much now) Or just take breaks like I do..Idk how bad it is to go a month on addies, a month off, and keep it like that, but thats what I try to do.