bnc84
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Ok so im a 33 year single mother of one, I am obese, smoke a pack of cigarettes a day, live a somewhat sedentary lifestyle, work full time behind a desk, have lost 3 very significant people in my life between 2012-2015, and have been suffering from health anxiety a good 3 years now, ranging from general worry daily to full blown, i'm going to die panic attacks. I have been to many doctors, tried many different things, have been reassured by doctors that i am healthy, and yet the symptoms (90% physical) still pile on, and change, and make me worry.
Here is what i have going in my system on a daily basis, and what i am prescribed to add in. Am i a worrying for nothing? I really don't want the "you need to quit this or that answers", as i am genuinely concerned wether these will cause interactions while i am trying to quit self medicating, but not all the way there yet. My psychiatrist is aware of all of my using, but my research indicates several interactions could occur with many of these medications. So here is the typical daily schedule:
Recreational Drugs:
1.small doses of marijuana almost daily, sometimes every other day, only in the evenings when ready for bed
2.shamefully, but working on, about a qtr gram of meth spread through out three smoking sessions daily
3.a good dose (1-4 mgs taken at separate intervals) of benzos if i am able to find them now, as i was cut off in July after 2.5 years of everyday use.
On weekends add in a good night of binge drinking between a pint and or fifth of whiskey or vodka i don't know if it would really be considered a binge, because it usually last from 6-12 hours, and i don't black out, or puke, just get a good buzz on.
Daily Supplements:
1. Vit B Complex
2. Omega 3
3. Magnesium
4. Vit B-12 as methylcobalamin= as of 2 weeks ago my level was in low 700 range, in August it was 203 (holistic doctor mentioned this test as a lot of my physical symptoms can be caused by nueropathy from vit B12 deficiency, and in all 3 years family doctor never tested this)
Anyway as doctors do, they have tried to advise me to quit self medicating with all of the above, and i do go weeks without any at all, but on a normal week, whats listed is in my body.
(Doctors Plan= Quit all of the above, start all of the below. The grey area is the transition, can they be added together, or do all above need out before below can be put in)
Psychiatrist suggested medicines; these were prescribed 3 weeks ago, have not taken one pill. (I know I should listen to the doctor, I am aware my choices are not great and can induce and further my anxiety)
Prescriptions:
1. Prozac, 20mg, 1 time a day
2. Propranolol 20 mg, 2 times a day or as needed
3. Vistaril, 25mg 2 times a day
4. Gabapentin, 300 mg, 3 times a day
5. Zantac, 330mg, 2 times a day
This might sound like i am taking it lightly, but after 3 years of fighting, and explaining, it just gets tiring. I did the prescriptions for 2 years, until taking antidepressants, made me depressed (yeah depressing huh) and i lost my job, became addicted to drugs, and signed myself into a mental facility. I came out and went off all meds cold turkey, except the benzos, and when my doc heard that, they went to. So now here i am with, I am starting to have panic more often, about to lose my job again, and i genuinely just want to be the best mother i can be, and for this mental illness to quit stealing my life, my joy, and everything about me that i was once proud of.
Thanks in advance for any helpful info and/or suggestions.
Here is what i have going in my system on a daily basis, and what i am prescribed to add in. Am i a worrying for nothing? I really don't want the "you need to quit this or that answers", as i am genuinely concerned wether these will cause interactions while i am trying to quit self medicating, but not all the way there yet. My psychiatrist is aware of all of my using, but my research indicates several interactions could occur with many of these medications. So here is the typical daily schedule:
Recreational Drugs:
1.small doses of marijuana almost daily, sometimes every other day, only in the evenings when ready for bed
2.shamefully, but working on, about a qtr gram of meth spread through out three smoking sessions daily
3.a good dose (1-4 mgs taken at separate intervals) of benzos if i am able to find them now, as i was cut off in July after 2.5 years of everyday use.
On weekends add in a good night of binge drinking between a pint and or fifth of whiskey or vodka i don't know if it would really be considered a binge, because it usually last from 6-12 hours, and i don't black out, or puke, just get a good buzz on.
Daily Supplements:
1. Vit B Complex
2. Omega 3
3. Magnesium
4. Vit B-12 as methylcobalamin= as of 2 weeks ago my level was in low 700 range, in August it was 203 (holistic doctor mentioned this test as a lot of my physical symptoms can be caused by nueropathy from vit B12 deficiency, and in all 3 years family doctor never tested this)
Anyway as doctors do, they have tried to advise me to quit self medicating with all of the above, and i do go weeks without any at all, but on a normal week, whats listed is in my body.
(Doctors Plan= Quit all of the above, start all of the below. The grey area is the transition, can they be added together, or do all above need out before below can be put in)
Psychiatrist suggested medicines; these were prescribed 3 weeks ago, have not taken one pill. (I know I should listen to the doctor, I am aware my choices are not great and can induce and further my anxiety)
Prescriptions:
1. Prozac, 20mg, 1 time a day
2. Propranolol 20 mg, 2 times a day or as needed
3. Vistaril, 25mg 2 times a day
4. Gabapentin, 300 mg, 3 times a day
5. Zantac, 330mg, 2 times a day
This might sound like i am taking it lightly, but after 3 years of fighting, and explaining, it just gets tiring. I did the prescriptions for 2 years, until taking antidepressants, made me depressed (yeah depressing huh) and i lost my job, became addicted to drugs, and signed myself into a mental facility. I came out and went off all meds cold turkey, except the benzos, and when my doc heard that, they went to. So now here i am with, I am starting to have panic more often, about to lose my job again, and i genuinely just want to be the best mother i can be, and for this mental illness to quit stealing my life, my joy, and everything about me that i was once proud of.
Thanks in advance for any helpful info and/or suggestions.