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Bluelighter
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Hey guys, hoping someone can help me out... Over the last few months I've started experimenting with various psychs, and while I've had fun and enjoyed it, i've had neither OEV's nor any ego shattering or insightful experiences.
I've tried (in date order):
Mushrooms - 3g dried. Got a light buzz and a bit of happy feeling, slight visual alteration i.e. things just looked strange, nothing major, quite dissapointing really, was like i'd had about 1/4 of a joint. My GF had half as much as me and was getting mild OEV's, trails and a picture of buildings came to life with people walking by etc. the same picture did nothing for me, except it seemed to be moving back and forth a bit
2c-i and 2c-e - around 60mg over the course of a day, i think i started with 15mg 2ce, then two doses of 20mg 2ci, then another 15mg of 2ce (over about 8 hours). Had a wild fun time, laughing and talking shit with 3 friends who were doing the same thing. They all reported crazy visuals, at one point I apparently turned into the cheshire cat and my mate turned into the devil according to my GF who only had about half as much as me, and only 2ci. I got some mild hallucinations, my hands seemed to change size and some lines in my house were all wonky, but at no point did I see anything that wasnt there. Did get some serious CEV's, repeating patterns and space-invader like computer generated images
Various other low dose experiences i.e. 10mg of 2ce, very mild trails but thats about it.
And most recently, this weekend, after being frustrated with never getting OEV's I decided to go (what I thought was) balls to the wall with 30mg 2ce. Amazing music appreciation and high feeling, no OEV's at all apart from a feeling that everything looked subtly different. No real CEV's either except when closing my eyes and listening to music I seemed to have some crazy imagination visuals. I wasn't actually seeing anything just my "minds eye" as one might say. As far as I know these arent CEV's just imaginatory? Not sure if they are the same thing.
I consider myself a very stable person, no issues within myself, I have a great and very happy life, just seem to never be able to get OEV's. Especially with 30mg 2ce I was expecing anything from melting walls, pretty colours, to full on alien encouters but nothing at all except feeling massivaly high and music was incredible.
Do I have the wrong attitude or approach? I also seem to have a massive tolerance to mdma (Always take twice as many pills as my GF to get to the same level as her, despite only done if a handful of times, less than 10). Is it possible to have a general tolerance for everything? Should I try 2ce again but with an even higher dose? I'm eager to experience either some sort of ego death or at least self-introspection, or proper OEV's but it just doesn't seem seem to happen!
I'm 26, male and about 85kg... thanks
I've tried (in date order):
Mushrooms - 3g dried. Got a light buzz and a bit of happy feeling, slight visual alteration i.e. things just looked strange, nothing major, quite dissapointing really, was like i'd had about 1/4 of a joint. My GF had half as much as me and was getting mild OEV's, trails and a picture of buildings came to life with people walking by etc. the same picture did nothing for me, except it seemed to be moving back and forth a bit
2c-i and 2c-e - around 60mg over the course of a day, i think i started with 15mg 2ce, then two doses of 20mg 2ci, then another 15mg of 2ce (over about 8 hours). Had a wild fun time, laughing and talking shit with 3 friends who were doing the same thing. They all reported crazy visuals, at one point I apparently turned into the cheshire cat and my mate turned into the devil according to my GF who only had about half as much as me, and only 2ci. I got some mild hallucinations, my hands seemed to change size and some lines in my house were all wonky, but at no point did I see anything that wasnt there. Did get some serious CEV's, repeating patterns and space-invader like computer generated images
Various other low dose experiences i.e. 10mg of 2ce, very mild trails but thats about it.
And most recently, this weekend, after being frustrated with never getting OEV's I decided to go (what I thought was) balls to the wall with 30mg 2ce. Amazing music appreciation and high feeling, no OEV's at all apart from a feeling that everything looked subtly different. No real CEV's either except when closing my eyes and listening to music I seemed to have some crazy imagination visuals. I wasn't actually seeing anything just my "minds eye" as one might say. As far as I know these arent CEV's just imaginatory? Not sure if they are the same thing.
I consider myself a very stable person, no issues within myself, I have a great and very happy life, just seem to never be able to get OEV's. Especially with 30mg 2ce I was expecing anything from melting walls, pretty colours, to full on alien encouters but nothing at all except feeling massivaly high and music was incredible.
Do I have the wrong attitude or approach? I also seem to have a massive tolerance to mdma (Always take twice as many pills as my GF to get to the same level as her, despite only done if a handful of times, less than 10). Is it possible to have a general tolerance for everything? Should I try 2ce again but with an even higher dose? I'm eager to experience either some sort of ego death or at least self-introspection, or proper OEV's but it just doesn't seem seem to happen!
I'm 26, male and about 85kg... thanks