ok ill try to keep it short and simple.... im just wondering if anyone else feels the way i do or what course of action i can take. im currently about 5 years sober i dont even drink or smoke weed, im 38, i had a meth addiction for about 5 years, i loved meth not nessicarrily the high it just always made me feel happy and smart. (not that i was sad to begin with) then i moved somewhere where meth was non-existant so i started using heroin. i didnt even like the high really i just got hooked on it fast and didnt wanna go through withdrawls, did that for a few years then checked into methadone.......was pretty much clean except methadone....was on that for about 12 years..then i discovered the bath salts and amphetamine copies......i ended up with simulant psychos, went to a rehab and been clean ever since....(about 5 years) ok my problem is i now have a wierd form of i guess physical anxiety, my nerves always feel umm tight and im constantly uncomfortable but its not in my muscular system or anything like that. my doc keeps keeping me meds for depression and axiety. i am not sad and the thing is i dont have the fear/worry/anger or emotional symptons people with anxiety have im actually very calm and happy disposition but this nervy feeling i have all the time is very distressing. sometimes its so bad all i can do is sleep to relief it. i dont sleep cus im lethargic or depressed i just hate feeling like this and its so hard to describe to my doc my symptoms, she tells me oh maybe panic attacks but im not panicing, nor am i in any pain........so hard to describe.....just feels my nerves are surging. but theye dont tingle or go numb.......please if anyone knows if a condition like this has a name or any kind of treatmeant youd be a life saver....i am on large doses of gabapentin. and 1 mg clonopin that helps a little but not that much.
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HELP. anyone else feel like this? im at wits end
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herbavore
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Have you tried doing calming mind/body things like yoga or even a martial art that involves stretching beforehand? Something like that might really help you. Congratulations on quitting--that must have taken a lot of hard work.
Tryptamine*Dreamer
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It's good that you quit!
I don't know if your doctor has ever considered treating you with a beta blocker such as propranolol, but I know they have been used for similar symptoms as have alpha-blockers such as clonidine. I'm also wondering if you could possibly have a long-term imbalance, perhaps low dopamine levels from the stimulant abuse. If so, perhaps Bupropion/Wellbutrin could help.
I don't know, but the large doses of gabapentin may be contributing to your problem, I know when I used it and pregabalin/Lyrica (a similar but stronger drug) for weeks it caused some physical feelings of nervousness in excess of what I usually felt from my anxiety and panic disorder (or maybe I had some PTSD type symptoms) - but whatever my problem was, gabapentin made it worse in the longer term, especially the physical aspect.
One other medication that could help is buspirone/Buspar - it isn't mind altering or addictive and helped both the mental and physical aspects of my anxiety. It sounds like you are primarily having physical symptoms. I'm no doctor, but from what I know, beta blockers and alpha blockers may be helpful for those physical symptoms. That may be worth talking with your doctor about.
And congratulations on staying sober!
I know that must have been a real challenge.
And herbevore's advice is sound - better if you can control this without medication. Another thing I could recommend you try is breathing exercises. That helped me
Good luck
I don't know if your doctor has ever considered treating you with a beta blocker such as propranolol, but I know they have been used for similar symptoms as have alpha-blockers such as clonidine. I'm also wondering if you could possibly have a long-term imbalance, perhaps low dopamine levels from the stimulant abuse. If so, perhaps Bupropion/Wellbutrin could help.
I don't know, but the large doses of gabapentin may be contributing to your problem, I know when I used it and pregabalin/Lyrica (a similar but stronger drug) for weeks it caused some physical feelings of nervousness in excess of what I usually felt from my anxiety and panic disorder (or maybe I had some PTSD type symptoms) - but whatever my problem was, gabapentin made it worse in the longer term, especially the physical aspect.
One other medication that could help is buspirone/Buspar - it isn't mind altering or addictive and helped both the mental and physical aspects of my anxiety. It sounds like you are primarily having physical symptoms. I'm no doctor, but from what I know, beta blockers and alpha blockers may be helpful for those physical symptoms. That may be worth talking with your doctor about.
And congratulations on staying sober!
I know that must have been a real challenge.
And herbevore's advice is sound - better if you can control this without medication. Another thing I could recommend you try is breathing exercises. That helped me
Good luck
thank you for responding, i did try wellbutrin it just made me antsy and sweaty (wellbutrin is basically a cathinone without euphoric effects), all well as all the ssri's....all gave me too many side effects especially effexor which was hell to quit it felt like opiate withdrawl all over again. we havent tried buspar or the alpha/beta blockers yet. i wrote that down. and ill ask her next time. i lost my house because of my addiction and im currently living with my folks they are getting older and if something was to happen to them im afraid i may turn back to heroin just so i can get accepted in a methadone program so i could feel good enough to work.