metalhead1
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Mar 24, 2011
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wont write anything big. been on all types of meds and its not something that can be fixed with them. My current obsessions have changed from irrational/weird thinking to more compulsive hand washing.
i was hoping some of the community could shed light on a few things so i could diminish my obessions greatly as my depression is at bay for once.
Current obsessions- Washing hands after going number 1 or 2. I feel the need to make sure i get soap on every square inch of my hand for it to be ok and not have germs left over. I end up spending 5 minutes washing my hands sometimes.
After i wash my hands ill feel relieved, but then ill go to my computer and ethier my fingernails will tap on the tip, which in my mind means that there are tiny nail particles on my hand and that if i packed a bowl of weed
i would be inhaling my finger nail or if i smoked a blunted i feel even more anxiety since theres no filter that stop me from inhaling a nail particle and then think its going to scratch my lungs or inside organs up.
Also i feel the urge to wash my hands after im typing and my finger nail scratches a key to hard ( i think that theres black paint under my nails then and if i dont wash ill be doing damage to myself)
Same thing applies to accidently scratching my desk and when my finger nail touches glass i worry im causing little glass particles to go under my nail and then possibly get inhaled.
I know its very odd questions for most of you and i appreciate any time taken to respond. If i can rationalize these out i could get away with half my xanax dosage or less.
i was hoping some of the community could shed light on a few things so i could diminish my obessions greatly as my depression is at bay for once.
Current obsessions- Washing hands after going number 1 or 2. I feel the need to make sure i get soap on every square inch of my hand for it to be ok and not have germs left over. I end up spending 5 minutes washing my hands sometimes.
After i wash my hands ill feel relieved, but then ill go to my computer and ethier my fingernails will tap on the tip, which in my mind means that there are tiny nail particles on my hand and that if i packed a bowl of weed
i would be inhaling my finger nail or if i smoked a blunted i feel even more anxiety since theres no filter that stop me from inhaling a nail particle and then think its going to scratch my lungs or inside organs up.
Also i feel the urge to wash my hands after im typing and my finger nail scratches a key to hard ( i think that theres black paint under my nails then and if i dont wash ill be doing damage to myself)
Same thing applies to accidently scratching my desk and when my finger nail touches glass i worry im causing little glass particles to go under my nail and then possibly get inhaled.
I know its very odd questions for most of you and i appreciate any time taken to respond. If i can rationalize these out i could get away with half my xanax dosage or less.
