Been lurking a while. I'm an "ex" alcoholic. 1.75 vodka a day. Kratom helped me kick that. But now I've got a Kratom habit. Ha.
Oh well, I think it's the better of two evils. At least I can work out with weights now. Can't do that hungover. And for me, weight training is my saviour.
I'm a big Benzo fiend too. Have an open order for 30 2mg Etiz. Just have to confirm and enter my CC info. I'm fighting myself to just delete it. The first 2 mg. Will be fine. Then 3 days later I will "wake up" after I ate all of them and have my poor wife tell me all the messed up things I did.
She thinks I'm Bi Polar. And I might be.
Why do I do that? Ugh.
I've been through withdrawals. Not pretty. Not too long ago I ordered 2 bottles Clonazolam and they sent me 4. I got scared and should have thrown them away but I reasoned (lied) to myself that I would moderate. The last thing I remember was me DRINKING the stuff right from the bottle! You can imagine what the next few days were like and the comedown withdrawal landed me in bed for 2 days.
I'm dependent on Kratom now, but it's the only substance that seems to moderate itself. Total abstinence just isn't in the cards for me. Not yet anyway.
I can even drink alcohol and not go overboard because Kratom in my system makes the beer buzz not as good.
I made some PST last week and it ruined Kratom for me a couple days. Sent my tolerance through the roof and it (the tea) wasn't even that great.
I also experimented with Tianeptine last year and that got expensive. I liked it too much.
Again, Kratom saved the day.
So, that's my brief introduction.
Hello to all.
Oh well, I think it's the better of two evils. At least I can work out with weights now. Can't do that hungover. And for me, weight training is my saviour.
I'm a big Benzo fiend too. Have an open order for 30 2mg Etiz. Just have to confirm and enter my CC info. I'm fighting myself to just delete it. The first 2 mg. Will be fine. Then 3 days later I will "wake up" after I ate all of them and have my poor wife tell me all the messed up things I did.
She thinks I'm Bi Polar. And I might be.
Why do I do that? Ugh.
I've been through withdrawals. Not pretty. Not too long ago I ordered 2 bottles Clonazolam and they sent me 4. I got scared and should have thrown them away but I reasoned (lied) to myself that I would moderate. The last thing I remember was me DRINKING the stuff right from the bottle! You can imagine what the next few days were like and the comedown withdrawal landed me in bed for 2 days.
I'm dependent on Kratom now, but it's the only substance that seems to moderate itself. Total abstinence just isn't in the cards for me. Not yet anyway.
I can even drink alcohol and not go overboard because Kratom in my system makes the beer buzz not as good.
I made some PST last week and it ruined Kratom for me a couple days. Sent my tolerance through the roof and it (the tea) wasn't even that great.
I also experimented with Tianeptine last year and that got expensive. I liked it too much.
Again, Kratom saved the day.
So, that's my brief introduction.
Hello to all.
