Hello!!!

[UrbanJungleBoy]

Hi all!! I've known about Bluelight and lurked here from time to time for a few years now and have today finally registered. I am an addict trying to fill a void that i can't seem to fill so maybe being here will help me with a few things, who knows? So...yeah, hello folks!

 

[flyhighk]

Welcome to Bluelight

I'm sure exercise can help fill that void. A good relationship will help too, and get a job if you don't have one already!

 

[Captain.Heroin]

Welcome to BL!!

 

[UrbanJungleBoy]

I know what needs to be done but saying and doing are different things i guess. I already have a good(ish) relationship that i've been in for nearly 3 years now. I have been promising my dear missus i'd clean up my act ever since we got together and i continuously let her down. We were together when we were 14 and 15 and got reacquainted again a few years ago after she heard of my Heroin addiction as i think she felt she could be superwoman and save me...but 2 methadone scripts and 2 subutex scripts later i'm no further forward than i ever was. My second run on subbies began just last friday and i have been feeling like utter poo ever since. This last week or so has been the first week in a long long time where i haven't been running around scoring and whatnot and so i have felt utterly lost and useless. I feel as though all purpose has disappeared from my days.