Surprisingly nervous as I make my first "proper" post- (yep am that much of a newbie to any kind of chat room that I used the test post thread first), read through the rules and regs, albeit quickly and realised I am bound to commit a faux paux at some point. My intentions are good.
I have read through posts in the past when I have been feeling particularly anxious/overwhelmed and think perhaps I could get more support by being more directly involved. Not sure how to look for appropriate thread...I am needing to get off subs, after being on a low dose for nearly 5 yrs..the tragedy of it was I was clean when I started taking the stuff, just exhausted and had access. Should have known so much better, after a17 year affair with H, five years on Methadone, then clean for a couple of years then a backslide, got on a bupe program lasted about 2year(?- maybe less, a bit fuzzy but that's pretty close), off that- jumped at about .5- was awful...then after nearly four clean years decided to get rid of my Hep C. Took that horrible medication to get rid of it, made me feel miserable, sick etc.. started accepting "help" from a well-meaning friend, in the form of tiny amounts of subloxone ...just kept taking it...now I really need to be free from it, wanting to achieve this without going to a doctor for reasons I wont go into now...On the up side, am Hep C free, but it has cost me my freedom from opiates, bugger hey. I know my fault.
What I would like is some info about how realistic it is to go from about 2.5 to nothing by christmas, after being on the stuff fibe years, 3.5 at the current dose. Any advice gratefully received.
I have read through posts in the past when I have been feeling particularly anxious/overwhelmed and think perhaps I could get more support by being more directly involved. Not sure how to look for appropriate thread...I am needing to get off subs, after being on a low dose for nearly 5 yrs..the tragedy of it was I was clean when I started taking the stuff, just exhausted and had access. Should have known so much better, after a17 year affair with H, five years on Methadone, then clean for a couple of years then a backslide, got on a bupe program lasted about 2year(?- maybe less, a bit fuzzy but that's pretty close), off that- jumped at about .5- was awful...then after nearly four clean years decided to get rid of my Hep C. Took that horrible medication to get rid of it, made me feel miserable, sick etc.. started accepting "help" from a well-meaning friend, in the form of tiny amounts of subloxone ...just kept taking it...now I really need to be free from it, wanting to achieve this without going to a doctor for reasons I wont go into now...On the up side, am Hep C free, but it has cost me my freedom from opiates, bugger hey. I know my fault.
What I would like is some info about how realistic it is to go from about 2.5 to nothing by christmas, after being on the stuff fibe years, 3.5 at the current dose. Any advice gratefully received.
