Hey there, I am a 22 year old Perth (Australia) boy who is either unemployed or a musician...you pick. I figure i may aswell go through a quick rundown of my drugs use/mental history so you know where i'm at.
started smoking weed at the age of 12 when my parents got divorced. by 15 i was a daily stoner and weekend pill popper or acid or wateva the fuck i could get my hands on. By the time i graduated school i had isolated myself in my own drug world addicted to most things and that i felt i was worthless and became very suicidal and paranoid with strong delusions of people "out to get me!!!!"
i had a panic attack one night and from upstairs i txt'd my dad saying "i need to talk"-this eventuated in me seeing a psychiatrist and being diagnosed with drug induced psychosis. I dropped all street drugs and became a heavy drinker and still had delusions and paranoia/strong anxiety and depression.
3 years on and I've dropped the bottle but sometimes slip up on the dihydracodiene (as i know it wont send me psychotic) now and then. I've recently been diagnosed with Bipolar and probably going to end up diagnosed with ADD/ADHD, the paranoia has cleared up thank fuck! and so has my anxiety (although anxiety can b triggered quite easily in mild forms for me). I am under a lot of medications to keep myself stable and hope i can contribute to the bluelight community.
any questions feel free,
Reformed
started smoking weed at the age of 12 when my parents got divorced. by 15 i was a daily stoner and weekend pill popper or acid or wateva the fuck i could get my hands on. By the time i graduated school i had isolated myself in my own drug world addicted to most things and that i felt i was worthless and became very suicidal and paranoid with strong delusions of people "out to get me!!!!"
i had a panic attack one night and from upstairs i txt'd my dad saying "i need to talk"-this eventuated in me seeing a psychiatrist and being diagnosed with drug induced psychosis. I dropped all street drugs and became a heavy drinker and still had delusions and paranoia/strong anxiety and depression.
3 years on and I've dropped the bottle but sometimes slip up on the dihydracodiene (as i know it wont send me psychotic) now and then. I've recently been diagnosed with Bipolar and probably going to end up diagnosed with ADD/ADHD, the paranoia has cleared up thank fuck! and so has my anxiety (although anxiety can b triggered quite easily in mild forms for me). I am under a lot of medications to keep myself stable and hope i can contribute to the bluelight community.
any questions feel free,
Reformed
