Ecstasy&Agony
Greenlighter
- Joined
- May 15, 2012
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I am a happily recovering opiate addict, freshly clean with just under 2 weeks under my belt. I was unable to find the courage to step down myself so I went to rehab and will never look back on drug use again. Those of you questioning whether or not an addict is an addict or a dependent is a dependent is very easy to do. I myself felt that I fell into another category of drug dependency because I was prescribed the medication, but in rehab (and reality) we're all the same. We have the same thoughts about how good our drug would make us feel, though many of us forget how much we actually lost during those glorifying days. We also receive the same medications for withdrawal (subutex) as an opiate user in forms of prescription use/misuse/abuse and heroin addicts.
While I was in rehab, though not at all religious, I was having a hard time grasping the 12 steps of recovery. Once I started paying attention I met my higher power and the world is a completely different place for me today. I am highly symbolic person and though my recovery I reconnected with my higher power (my beloved grandmother). I believe there are little coincidences in this world, just believe in yourself and find that something to give you the power to stay strong though the worst and that will be proud of you at your best.
Just because I haven't used in two weeks doesn't mean that my days are any easier than those of you who just quit yesterday. Stay strong, PUSH THOUGH, find the strength and the will to be educated about what these drugs do to you and try your hardest not to replace one piece of junk for another. I talked to my doctor yesterday and she absolutely would not give me anything! Tough love from her, but I know my personality and biological make-up has me craving to stuff another pill or drug down my throat to make it all better.
So keep on keeping on and in time, 6 weeks to 6 months, life will be better!!
While I was in rehab, though not at all religious, I was having a hard time grasping the 12 steps of recovery. Once I started paying attention I met my higher power and the world is a completely different place for me today. I am highly symbolic person and though my recovery I reconnected with my higher power (my beloved grandmother). I believe there are little coincidences in this world, just believe in yourself and find that something to give you the power to stay strong though the worst and that will be proud of you at your best.
Just because I haven't used in two weeks doesn't mean that my days are any easier than those of you who just quit yesterday. Stay strong, PUSH THOUGH, find the strength and the will to be educated about what these drugs do to you and try your hardest not to replace one piece of junk for another. I talked to my doctor yesterday and she absolutely would not give me anything! Tough love from her, but I know my personality and biological make-up has me craving to stuff another pill or drug down my throat to make it all better.
So keep on keeping on and in time, 6 weeks to 6 months, life will be better!!
