Avalynne
Greenlighter
Hi everyone,just to say hello,and what a wonderful world I have discovered here!!
I am new to eph,as of 22 days ago,and have been learning fast and hard.Only 1 day without any.....well I didnt think it would be so good did I?Took me right back to my yearned for youth and days of whizzing my head off
I have learnt that this stuff is,to me highly addictive,and should never of crossed my path.My bombs are getting bigger (Maybe 150mg)and the effects are not as good,but last a long time.Saying that though,I do not,will not (well not in the foreseeable,never say never)snort this again,even though I love the effect,my nose is not happy with me.The pain of a searing hot poker going from my nose,to eye and out of head outweighs the nice hit.
I did over do it the other day,after deciding to stay up all night,did a little too much early morning,ended up throwing up,sweating like crazy and feeling like I was going to pass out...not nice.This reaction happened about 2 hours after my last bomb,and lasted over 2 hours,and having not read about this particular reaction in anyone else,I did wonder....but I kept my head,and told myself not to freak.I was only able to do this because of past horrors that I have gone through,not all of them to do with drugs.An inexperienced user could well of ended up in hospital.....But after some sleep I felt much better,and grew a new respect for my new friend.Or should that be fiend?
I do worry about the health issues,having many problems already,and this is so caustic,1 day of taking it sub lingually and I have a couple of the biggest,angriest ulcers I have ever seen
I also know that my tolerance has built,I am doing too much,too often but my pathetic life has,for the moment,something other than pain and misery,and I want to enjoy it.I only mix it with the odd Zolpiderm to get to sleep,or some codeine when my pain kicks in,but even my intake of those has gone down.I no longer drink alcohol, know what I like and quite honestly could do without another addiction.
My family know nothing of this secret life I have dug myself into,my Hubby would probably divorce me if he ever found out.But to do that he would have to pull his head out of the self imposed bubble of PS3 addiction.My kids think I am eccentric sometimes anyway,I was an alcoholic until about 3 years ago,so let's just say they have seen a lot.I am a bit of a quiet loner,I am now disabled,I have a neuro problem that is unnamed,but causes altered sensation and numbness in my hand and feet,so if I go out it is in a wheelchair.I also am recovering from major ankle surgery,just to add to the excitement.Also I am friendless.100% billy no mates.But sometimes I like it like that.
Anyway,I hope to be posting more here,and sorry for waffling on.
I am new to eph,as of 22 days ago,and have been learning fast and hard.Only 1 day without any.....well I didnt think it would be so good did I?Took me right back to my yearned for youth and days of whizzing my head off
I have learnt that this stuff is,to me highly addictive,and should never of crossed my path.My bombs are getting bigger (Maybe 150mg)and the effects are not as good,but last a long time.Saying that though,I do not,will not (well not in the foreseeable,never say never)snort this again,even though I love the effect,my nose is not happy with me.The pain of a searing hot poker going from my nose,to eye and out of head outweighs the nice hit.
I did over do it the other day,after deciding to stay up all night,did a little too much early morning,ended up throwing up,sweating like crazy and feeling like I was going to pass out...not nice.This reaction happened about 2 hours after my last bomb,and lasted over 2 hours,and having not read about this particular reaction in anyone else,I did wonder....but I kept my head,and told myself not to freak.I was only able to do this because of past horrors that I have gone through,not all of them to do with drugs.An inexperienced user could well of ended up in hospital.....But after some sleep I felt much better,and grew a new respect for my new friend.Or should that be fiend?
I do worry about the health issues,having many problems already,and this is so caustic,1 day of taking it sub lingually and I have a couple of the biggest,angriest ulcers I have ever seen
I also know that my tolerance has built,I am doing too much,too often but my pathetic life has,for the moment,something other than pain and misery,and I want to enjoy it.I only mix it with the odd Zolpiderm to get to sleep,or some codeine when my pain kicks in,but even my intake of those has gone down.I no longer drink alcohol, know what I like and quite honestly could do without another addiction.My family know nothing of this secret life I have dug myself into,my Hubby would probably divorce me if he ever found out.But to do that he would have to pull his head out of the self imposed bubble of PS3 addiction.My kids think I am eccentric sometimes anyway,I was an alcoholic until about 3 years ago,so let's just say they have seen a lot.I am a bit of a quiet loner,I am now disabled,I have a neuro problem that is unnamed,but causes altered sensation and numbness in my hand and feet,so if I go out it is in a wheelchair.I also am recovering from major ankle surgery,just to add to the excitement.Also I am friendless.100% billy no mates.But sometimes I like it like that.
Anyway,I hope to be posting more here,and sorry for waffling on.
)has overtaken that.and yeah,me and alcohol have had some history,for now all I will say is I am coming up to 3 years of not drinking,and have paid quite a price mentally and physically.I will probably blurt everything out one night,so don't say you haven't been warned.What did Sekio mean by that?I will keep this short,it is the 4th time I have typed a message,only for them to fluff up somehow.I must fiddle with the settings and stuff,cos this auto save thing that keeps popping up is not doing a very good job,and I hate repeating myself.(I do enough of that at home,living with 2 teenagers and a Hubby who I think can be worse that the kids!)
