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Hello quick intro about me

benzoheadplus44

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Well I am not a new member I have been around since like 2005 but finally joined in 2008 and I am not sure if I ever introduced myself. I don't really post a lot or have a lot to show for myself here at bluelight... but this site has helped me so much through the years... thank you bluelight.

Anyways here is my belated introduction.

My name is Chris, I am 23 years old, and come from Chicago.

My life up until about a year and a half ago has been a struggle due to drugs and addiction (nothing crazy rediculous though, but I would still say a struggle to say the least)... A very tragic event happened in the summer of 2008 where my dad passed away and I feel like I really want to open up on that... I almost got blamed for it (I would have to explain the story don't think I did anything and killed him) but I didn't because they realized I wouldn't shove my father down a flight of stairs... I shit you not this really happened and it crushed my life... I can no longer be with my family. So I am a very very lonely person these days.... Its a long story and I have told it too many times but I don't want to completely go there right now its not needed at the moment, but it was a big big thing that affected my life... again I did not shove him this was a big misunderstanding because we were in a verbal argument at the time and no one was upstairs with us when he fell so it appeared that I did it, no one could see anything but our feet... I really didn't though. I'm sorry this story is not necessary right now, I am not looking for attention, I am not trying to make you all feel bad for me... like George Carlin said... It's like the big pink elephant sitting on the fucking couch in the middle of a party (or something like that, you know)... I needed to tell someone other than who already knows... who better than to tell than BL? Aha! I really wanted to let it out there though...

Music...
I listen to a lot of modern rock... mainly metal and psychobilly as of recent but I like a lot of stuff. Music is a big part of my daily life. I always have my ipod on.

This new (well to me) band similar to sublime/slightly stoopid is called "the b foundation" you all should check them out if you like that kinda stuff as well...

enough on that though...

Like I said I have been around but never really said much but I am looking to talk to some of you nice people... my social life has gotten a little better from when it plummeted a couple years ago but I am on felony probation for starting a fire when I was 18 so I just try to stay at home a lot... plus I love my Xbox and computer so now is the best time to use all this shit...

I still smoke and do drugs on probation which is not smart probably but I know how their little system and my system work, so its been good so far.

Thank you for your moment to read this. Feel free to send me a pm anytime for any reason.... if you need help, have a question, or just want to say hello. :D

I may appear to be a trouble maker but I'm not that bad of a person... if you get to know me.
 
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Hey, Chris! I'm a newb too, (been lurking forever though). I'm sorry to hear about your family, that is just horrible. I understand the need to just get that energy out there and talk/write about it. And props for referencing George Carlin! Love that dude.
 
Hey, Chris! I'm a newb too, (been lurking forever though). I'm sorry to hear about your family, that is just horrible. I understand the need to just get that energy out there and talk/write about it. And props for referencing George Carlin! Love that dude.

Thank you very much so Queen I appreciate it. I'm a newb (cuz I never really post... look at my low post count) but at the same time I have been browsing these forums since the tail end of 04... I just don't post a lot. Never signed up until 08.

Yes, Mr. Carlin is a funny guy, I have used that saying before for a lot of stuff.... makes people laugh every time haha. It's very unfortunate that he passed away as well. He was/is one of my favorite comedians. He's at the top... funny as hell... I think most people would agree.
 
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^^Seriously, I had put off going to see him for years and one day I just said I would go and see him next time I could, next day I heard that he died. So sad. It makes me much more anxious to do all the stuff I want to do in life, that's for sure.
 
Oh wow that is crazy. I'm sorry, the timing on that was messed up it sounds like. In what ways does it make you more anxious, if you don't mind me asking? Do you mean like how quickly he passed away, is that what made you anxious?
 
Oh wow that is crazy. I'm sorry, the timing on that was messed up it sounds like. In what ways does it make you more anxious, if you don't mind me asking? Do you mean like how quickly he passed away, is that what made you anxious?

Well, the fact that I kept putting it off and putting it off and one day he was gone made me realize that: a) lots of other things I want to do might just disappear one day and b) I might just disappear one day. You never know when your last day is and having something like that happen was a real eye opener.
 
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