benzoheadplus44
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Feb 15, 2008
- Messages
- 317
Well I am not a new member I have been around since like 2005 but finally joined in 2008 and I am not sure if I ever introduced myself. I don't really post a lot or have a lot to show for myself here at bluelight... but this site has helped me so much through the years... thank you bluelight.
Anyways here is my belated introduction.
My name is Chris, I am 23 years old, and come from Chicago.
My life up until about a year and a half ago has been a struggle due to drugs and addiction (nothing crazy rediculous though, but I would still say a struggle to say the least)... A very tragic event happened in the summer of 2008 where my dad passed away and I feel like I really want to open up on that... I almost got blamed for it (I would have to explain the story don't think I did anything and killed him) but I didn't because they realized I wouldn't shove my father down a flight of stairs... I shit you not this really happened and it crushed my life... I can no longer be with my family. So I am a very very lonely person these days.... Its a long story and I have told it too many times but I don't want to completely go there right now its not needed at the moment, but it was a big big thing that affected my life... again I did not shove him this was a big misunderstanding because we were in a verbal argument at the time and no one was upstairs with us when he fell so it appeared that I did it, no one could see anything but our feet... I really didn't though. I'm sorry this story is not necessary right now, I am not looking for attention, I am not trying to make you all feel bad for me... like George Carlin said... It's like the big pink elephant sitting on the fucking couch in the middle of a party (or something like that, you know)... I needed to tell someone other than who already knows... who better than to tell than BL? Aha! I really wanted to let it out there though...
Music...
I listen to a lot of modern rock... mainly metal and psychobilly as of recent but I like a lot of stuff. Music is a big part of my daily life. I always have my ipod on.
This new (well to me) band similar to sublime/slightly stoopid is called "the b foundation" you all should check them out if you like that kinda stuff as well...
enough on that though...
Like I said I have been around but never really said much but I am looking to talk to some of you nice people... my social life has gotten a little better from when it plummeted a couple years ago but I am on felony probation for starting a fire when I was 18 so I just try to stay at home a lot... plus I love my Xbox and computer so now is the best time to use all this shit...
I still smoke and do drugs on probation which is not smart probably but I know how their little system and my system work, so its been good so far.
Thank you for your moment to read this. Feel free to send me a pm anytime for any reason.... if you need help, have a question, or just want to say hello. :D
I may appear to be a trouble maker but I'm not that bad of a person... if you get to know me.
Anyways here is my belated introduction.
My name is Chris, I am 23 years old, and come from Chicago.
My life up until about a year and a half ago has been a struggle due to drugs and addiction (nothing crazy rediculous though, but I would still say a struggle to say the least)... A very tragic event happened in the summer of 2008 where my dad passed away and I feel like I really want to open up on that... I almost got blamed for it (I would have to explain the story don't think I did anything and killed him) but I didn't because they realized I wouldn't shove my father down a flight of stairs... I shit you not this really happened and it crushed my life... I can no longer be with my family. So I am a very very lonely person these days.... Its a long story and I have told it too many times but I don't want to completely go there right now its not needed at the moment, but it was a big big thing that affected my life... again I did not shove him this was a big misunderstanding because we were in a verbal argument at the time and no one was upstairs with us when he fell so it appeared that I did it, no one could see anything but our feet... I really didn't though. I'm sorry this story is not necessary right now, I am not looking for attention, I am not trying to make you all feel bad for me... like George Carlin said... It's like the big pink elephant sitting on the fucking couch in the middle of a party (or something like that, you know)... I needed to tell someone other than who already knows... who better than to tell than BL? Aha! I really wanted to let it out there though...
Music...
I listen to a lot of modern rock... mainly metal and psychobilly as of recent but I like a lot of stuff. Music is a big part of my daily life. I always have my ipod on.
This new (well to me) band similar to sublime/slightly stoopid is called "the b foundation" you all should check them out if you like that kinda stuff as well...
enough on that though...
Like I said I have been around but never really said much but I am looking to talk to some of you nice people... my social life has gotten a little better from when it plummeted a couple years ago but I am on felony probation for starting a fire when I was 18 so I just try to stay at home a lot... plus I love my Xbox and computer so now is the best time to use all this shit...
I still smoke and do drugs on probation which is not smart probably but I know how their little system and my system work, so its been good so far.
Thank you for your moment to read this. Feel free to send me a pm anytime for any reason.... if you need help, have a question, or just want to say hello. :D
I may appear to be a trouble maker but I'm not that bad of a person... if you get to know me.
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