Hello!! NEW & Looking for help!

[ashking85]

Hey Im Ashley, new to this site I hope to make some genuine friends and get/ give advice... I'm from the Boston MA area. I'm 29 well 30 now and my life is messed up..fucked up.. sorry for swearing. Soooo my addiction started in 2009 with 30 mg oxys the blue ones..and worked up to shooting heroin. I do about 1 gram + daily. some days more and I don't feel it anymore. The quality of it is really good but my tolerance is thru the roof .some days although I just shot a .9 I still feel crappy..no motivation or energy which i used to get from it. Ppl around me will do a .2 and nod off lol..yet I don't get a rush. Ughhh I am SICK of this life. I also am addicted to xanax. A bar daily. FML.. Nothing makes me happy anymore and I can't even get high to numb myself... which pisses me off sooo bad that I'll do more even though i know i wont feel it.. I need advice on how to live life again. I want to get sober. I have suboxone which I never take. They make me go into withdrawals even if I wait 24 hrs. Or more plus I hate them.
. But I'm so frustrated by not being able to get high at all- I do feel a burning sensation thru my body sometimes when I IV it ( but its not a miss)... idk wtf it happens but it hurts when it comes on goes down to my feet. And my chest gets all red.. anyways maybe someone else understands what I am going through. Not good at explaining myself very well but ya get the idea of what I mean... any suggestions?? Again I'm glad to be here. And hope to hear back... have a good day ✌❤☺??

 

[xxixamxninjaxx]

Well if you want support and friends I believe you came to the right place. There are plenty of people including myself who would be happy to answer questions and just hear you out. I can say I know where you are coming from being an opiate abuser myself and it's a suck feeling. That said we both know there is only one way off this train and it sucks. You say you don't take the subs because you detox and the thing is you will. I wouldn't take the subs either honestly as there is no point of prolonging or trading one addiction for another. The honest best advice I think anyone could give you would be to just stop(Sounds ridiculous but it's that easy)and set up a support group and if you need get help. I prefer the jump out of a moving car approach as it sucks and hurts but it's over much faster. I go to the ER if I think my body can't take anymore and take it day to day. There are people who have kicked higher habits so no reason you can't get off what you're on. You can get multiple items( Kratom etc..)to help with the physical detox but I didn't. I just roughed the storm and it was brutal but it comes and goes. I figure you get high for so long you kinda deserve a bit of a punishment lol. I'm 29 and have fought opiates over a decade and it's a fucking war that never ends or so it seems. You have to eventually say to yourself that you deserve better because you do!

 

[nancy145]

I don't have much expirence with addiction, but you should check out the "the dark side", "sober living" and "other drugs" forums. the dark side will give you emotional support, sober living will give you advice on what to do, and other drugs (heroin) will give you info on general safetey related questions to heroin.

 

[nancy145]

Hope you get better tho

 

[AllAtOne..ce]

First of all best of luck to you. I really feel your situation. There was a point in time that a gram of mscontin and a fist full of oc was to just get through the day. Many people here say fml everyday, myself included. As an addict I'm great at self pitty, but it's not helpful. Try to own it before you go into withdrawal try to come to terms as much as you can and just own it. Know that this will make you stronger. My best suggestions for the opiates, to get off as easy as possible switch to kratom and then taper it. When you first switch you may feel discomfort but not full blown. Some immodium like 20mg will help those days start low, don't abuse it. The kratom withdrawal is like the last 3 days of wd from the harder stuff, not fun but a walk in the park compared to your everyday. Seriously the kratom and immodium do wonders. After you switch to kratom I would start a long slow taper for the xanax I'm sure many dosing schedules can be found on BL. Stay away from any new drugs to get off. I only suggest kratom because I would have loved to had it when I kicked. Just be reminded when you drink that puddle of Muck how much poppystraw a gram of h is and how unnatural that is

 

[Invisible Helper]

I sent you a friends request anytime you wanna talk .... I'm in a similar situation been doing h IV for a few years and benzos here and there and now I think I added Valium addiction now . I hate subuxone too :/ only taken it twice sorta properly ugh it's tough and I'm shaking cold under my bed right now hour 14

 

[Stizz2091]

I'm from boston too, we should meet up. Enjoy ourselves.