Hello my sweet little bluelighters ^^

[Hexenstahl]

Heil my fellow drug connoisseurs. I'm based in Germany, 33 years young and would like to contribute to harm reduction and share experiences here in this lovely forum. A few things about me: I have a very dark sense of humour that knows no bounds. I use non-pc language and you can suck my pussy if you have a problem with it. My fav colors are black and red. I have a passion for classical and art nouveau architecture. I can see beauty where others don't. I like listening to dark electro (my all time favorite www.youtube.com/watch?v=q_hwqbhdQLI ). I'm an avid knife collector and if you happen to know artists who make outstanding knives with unique ornamentations (etsy artists are welcome too) then please PM me. I'm willing to pay a lot of money to get hold of such knives.
I hate alcohol and psychedelics. I'm sexually dominant and heavily into Primal kink. My top three books are "A Beginner's Guide to Constructing the Universe" by Michael S. Schneider (a truly fascinating book), "Theory of Economic Development" by Joseph Schumpeter and "Lingua Latina - Familia Romana" by Hans H. Orberg (such a fun and natural way to learn Latin; all languages should be taught this way!).

I've done my fair share of drugs but have settled for my two favorite substance classes, namely opioids and cocaine. Occasionally I like to do some speed too (acetone washed amphetamine sulfate) but only when I have to do long, boring chores since I don't like the tweaky feel of amps. It's perfect for animalistic sex marathons though
I used to enjoy weed in my student years but eventually I started to react very negatively to the weed high. I got into extremely negative thought loops where I saw myself in the worst light possible and couldn't help but excessively criticize myself. That's when I stopped and eventually got into harder drugs.

Thank you for reading and I hope you tell me a little bit about yourselves too. That goes for both my fellow bitchqueens and the lowly male species in this forum

 

[Robi]

welcome to bluelight!You sound like a blast! hope you enjoy all the threads and info as i have,some great folks about,always willing to lend an ear and share important info

 

[Hexenstahl]

welcome to bluelight!You sound like a blast! hope you enjoy all the threads and info as i have,some great folks about,always willing to lend an ear and share important info

Thanks hun. I've been a silent reader in this forum for a while and I have read some very informative posts by very competent people here. Lots of great people here

 

[PtahTek]

I started to react very negatively to the weed high.

Gotta push through it, friend.
Whats the video about? Not sure how to click on the link. Dumb keyboards.
Weed can fuck up a program quick. I cannot smoke while I work I get all in the weeds literally. Spinning. Not so much anymore but it has happened. I dont care to feel this way so I leave it at home and ,my days mostly run timely. Gotta be a robot (love that robot in lost in space, no? ).
Anyway just wanted to say hi. Sound fairly busy so wont hold ya up this weed got me leanin; I will only get in the way. fuckin up the program. lol
Peace

 

[Robi]

have you ever enjoyed Fetlife?Ive become to adore BL, month or so if memory serves me right, Im from cali, some experience in the D/s scene in San Fran leather community. got off opioids'
Fentynal to be exact , very light drinker, smoker now, I quit some SSRI`s after a few weeks on them, and now trying my best not to take xanax like i would if i wasnt educated more so than i was, keeping my nose clean literally, nice too meetcha

 

[Hexenstahl]

Gotta push through it, friend.
Whats the video about? Not sure how to click on the link. Dumb keyboards.
Weed can fuck up a program quick. I cannot smoke while I work I get all in the weeds literally. Spinning. Not so much anymore but it has happened. I dont care to feel this way so I leave it at home and ,my days mostly run timely. Gotta be a robot (love that robot in lost in space, no? ).
Anyway just wanted to say hi. Sound fairly busy so wont hold ya up this weed got me leanin; I will only get in the way. fuckin up the program. lol
Peace

The vid should work now.
And nah, I'm not busy. Just high as a kite on speed. Took a line an hour ago and the comeup was awesome. Quality is different this time, I can feel it. I gotta be careful not to end up on a porn binge though, since I planned to do something productive.

 

[Hexenstahl]

have you ever enjoyed Fetlife?Ive become to adore BL, month or so if memory serves me right, Im from cali, some experience in the D/s scene in San Fran leather community. got off opioids'
Fentynal to be exact , very light drinker, smoker now, I quit some SSRI`s after a few weeks on them, and now trying my best not to take xanax like i would if i wasnt educated more so than i was, keeping my nose clean literally, nice too meetcha

I know about Fetlife but honestly I was never into this whole leather-latex-whip type of stuff. It feels very impersonal, distant and cold. I like it primal, rough and animalistic. I'm more into erotic wrestling (mixed wrestling, but also f/f wrestling). Something that ends up being very intimate, wild and fiery.

 

[December Flower]

Also solang der Nazishite nur n Witz oder ein Fetisch ist, is mia des wurscht!

Welcome, have fun

 

[Hexenstahl]

Also solang der Nazishite nur n Witz oder ein Fetisch ist, is mia des wurscht!

Welcome, have fun

Ach Schätzchen du hast einfach keinen Sinn für Humor

 

[December Flower]

Ach Schätzchen du hast einfach keinen Sinn für Humor

nich unbedingt das lustigste Thema, Katzal

 

[Hexenstahl]

nich unbedingt das lustigste Thema, Katzal

Tja, also ich find's zum schießen. Gerade jetzt wo ich auf üüübelst guter Paste unterwegs bin wie man so schön sagt, gell? Wie auch immer, hab dich lieb (ach wo ist dieses solo umarmungs emoji dingens?)

 

[December Flower]

Tja, also ich find's zum schießen. Gerade jetzt wo ich auf üüübelst guter Paste unterwegs bin wie man so schön sagt, gell? Wie auch immer, hab dich lieb (ach wo ist dieses solo umarmungs emoji dingens?)

Ait, back to English, or MydriHaze will think I wanna start a war again

have fun here, it's really a nice community

 

[arrall]

Welcome to Bluelight, @Hexenstahl! Glad to have you here. This is one of the coolest introductory posts I've seen.

I'm an avid knife collector

I'd love to see a photo of your collection if you're okay sharing.

My "collection" currently consists of a butterfly knife with an non-live blade and a shitty scuffed up Spyderco folding knife I picked up off the ground at a rave, but I'm probably going to get some actual knives myself at some point.

A Beginner's Guide to Constructing the Universe

Sounds interesting, will give this one a read.

I hate alcohol and psychedelics.

I can certainly understand the hate for alcohol, but psychedelic hate is a rare one here. Any reasons or stories behind it?

EDIT: Liking the electrogoth mix.

 

[Jabberwocky]

Heil my fellow drug connoisseurs. I'm based in Germany, 33 years young and would like to contribute to harm reduction and share experiences here in this lovely forum. A few things about me: I have a very dark sense of humour that knows no bounds. I use non-pc language and you can suck my pussy if you have a problem with it. My fav colors are black and red. I have a passion for classical and art nouveau architecture. I can see beauty where others don't. I like listening to dark electro (my all time favorite www.youtube.com/watch?v=q_hwqbhdQLI ). I'm an avid knife collector and if you happen to know artists who make outstanding knives with unique ornamentations (etsy artists are welcome too) then please PM me. I'm willing to pay a lot of money to get hold of such knives.
I hate alcohol and psychedelics. I'm sexually dominant and heavily into Primal kink. My top three books are "A Beginner's Guide to Constructing the Universe" by Michael S. Schneider (a truly fascinating book), "Theory of Economic Development" by Joseph Schumpeter and "Lingua Latina - Familia Romana" by Hans H. Orberg (such a fun and natural way to learn Latin; all languages should be taught this way!).

are we best friends now???

yeah, we are..!

welcome

I look forward to many weird and interesting conversations

 

[Jabberwocky]

psychedelic hate is a rare one here. Any reasons or stories behind it?

I'm also curious, if only for the reason. Often I feel like the only voice on this forum who will mention the dangers of psychedelic use. They are treated like cannabis and their serious dangers ignored, as if it were cannabis.

LSD is still my drug of choice, love that shit to death, but it bothers me how lightly some people take it.

 

[JTemperance]

You sound like a blast!

Sure does.

Welcome to the site, @Hexenstahl, glad you're here. I have mixed feelings about classical architecture and knives, but I think I like dark electro (does D.A.F. count?) and I definitely like opioids and cocaine (not to mention amphetamine).

 

[Illyria99]

Definitely the greatest introduction I've seen in quite awhile!

 

[Skorpio]

Welcome

I wear a kershaw leek as my security blanket.

Like the tunes, we may have some overlap on taste. How do you feel about this?

I like many classes, but dissos probably have my heart. Opis are great but not easy to control so i avoid. Stims are good for functions (work and clubbing). I like a good cocktail and psychs and enjoy interesting new compounds (like Pokemon gotta catch 'em all or something).

As for bdsm, i like pain (love getting caned), but I'm not too sexual so it's really the context of intense sensation that does it for me.

I really only like fiction for pleasure reading. Currently reading a book called The Tunnel by William Gass. Based on your affinity for darkness you may enjoy.

Big fan of German expressionist art. You ever fuck with the paintings of Georges Baselitz?

 

[Hexenstahl]

I wear a kershaw leek as my security blanket.

Kershaws are indeed quite practical for security. When it comes to self-defense however, especially if it's a life or death situation, I prefer a serpentine shiv because the wounds such blades cause don't close easily. I learned this from my superior when I still served in the Bundeswehr. Aside from that they look elegant too ^^
https://ae01.alicdn.com/kf/H0cba491...ser-EDC-Schneiden-Werkzeuge.jpg_Q90.jpg_.webp

Like the tunes, we may have some overlap on taste. How do you feel about this?

Too chaotic and disorderly for my taste. I like something with more rythm and melody.

I like many classes, but dissos probably have my heart.

Low dose dissos feel great actually. Completely forgot to mention that, even though I take them rarely.

Big fan of German expressionist art. You ever fuck with the paintings of Georges Baselitz?

No, I'm into what in german is called "Schwarze Romantik" (dark romanticism).
https://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipe...z_Two_Young_Girls_or_the_Beautiful_Rosine.jpg
https://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipe...es_-_Witches_Sabbath_-_Google_Art_Project.jpg
https://der-schwarze-planet.de/word...ann-Heinrich-Fuessli-thor-midgardschlange.jpg

I'd love to see a photo of your collection if you're okay sharing.

I'm planning to create an album of all my knives once I have bought proper glass cabinets to showcase them.

My most recent purchase is a cool kitchen knife with a shark fin aesthetic from FrostFerrumForge:


I actually use this one in my kitchen. It's an absolute eyecatcher when my friends visit me.
I also bought a small and slick version of that knife for decoration.

but psychedelic hate is a rare one here. Any reasons or stories behind it?

Long story short: when I started my career in the military, me and a couple of people in our battalion became friends and tried an extremely long acting hallucinogenic drug (can't remember exactly what it was) during a night where we were not on active duty. I was actually suprised that someone offered us psychedelics as it is not really considered to be a "soldier drug". Amps, benzos and opis were common but not psychedelics. Anyway, we became curious and decided to try it out. During that time I had the wrong ideas about psychedelics. I thought it just makes you see cool and outlandish stuff. I wasn't aware that it can actually cause delusions, horror trips and bring subconscious baggage to the conscious mind. I have only hazy memories of that night but eventually something happened, we were seperated and I was suddenly marching with another battalion of sober soldiers (lol) and the sergeant yelling something in a terrifying guttural voice that sounded like a zombie giving orders and the others around me repeating it. They sounded like the zombie hordes in Black Ops 1 (they actually sound funny in the game but not when tripping). I was somehow able to play along and appear calm and collected despite having the most intense anxiety attack of my life. Eventually, after what felt like many endless hours of marching and carrying boxes around, we were finally released and I somehow managed to find myself back in the barracks of my original battalion, took a bunch of benzos and woke up the next night with a halfway clear head.

Words can't really convey the horror I experienced and it took a couple of months until I was completely normal again, but since that event I never touched psychedelics again. Maybe one day I'll find the courage to try out a low dose of lsd or shrooms in a safe setting, but until then I will keep hating hallucinogenics with a passion.

are we best friends now???

Ofc we are my weird yellow friendo

 

[December Flower]

are we best friends now???

yeah, we are..!

welcome

I look forward to many weird and interesting conversations

knew Snafu would dig the German domme