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Hello, I'm new here and this is hard to write, but, I am an addict

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Pillstacka

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I have been taking stupid amounts of panadeine fortes and extras and nurofen plus to get a buzz from the codeine... I gave up heavy drinking and smoking dope very heavily 5 years ago and was going ok... Til I started getting panic attacks... I was diagnosed with PTSD from a violent incident in a past relationship the Drs started giving me murelax, which helped a lot, but then said I couldn't keep taking them... They put me on paxam after discovering through trial and error that I couldn't take antidepressants... The paxam got me!! Hook line and sinker!! I was abusing them badly... So they put me on XANAX!!! Why??? I do not know!! Anyway, long story short, I'm addicted to it now. Then I hurt my back a couple of years ago and was prescribed the fortes... That's when the codeine addiction started. Now I have been taking massive amounts... Like 7 fortes + 7 nurofen plus 3x a day. Now I'm hurting!!! Bad gut pain, sore legs, sore back, constipation... Feel like crap! Very worried that I have damaged my liver... I'm so ashamed I don't want to go tell my doctor... :| I have been trying CWE, but not often enough... I'm so damn addicted to the stuff I feel absolutely powerless to stop. I'm lying in bed contemplating going to the hospital... Or trying to ride this thing out... Stop cold turkey... Or lower the dose?? Arrgghhh!!!
 
Ok... Feeling a lot better today... Stopped the nurofen and started CWE with all the tablets... Seems to be the way to go... Flushed my system... Booked in to see a psychologist again in a couple of months... Have to get a hold of this thing before it kills me! Hate having such an addictive personality... Wish more than anything in the world that I didn't...
 
Welcome to Bluelight :) i imagine someone will move this to topic to BDD as the people in that forum can probably give better advice, good that you're actively trying to help yourself, that's always a good start, if you're still taking Benzo's i'm pretty sure you need to taper off of them instead of quitting outright
 
Welcome to Bluelight! It would be helpful if you used the generic names for drugs instead of brand names, since they vary depending on your region.
 
Nurofen plus= 200mg ibuprofen and 12.8 mg codeine... Panadeine forte = 500mg paracetamol and 30 mg codeine... Xanax is alprazolam... I'm taking 1mg 3x a day and have tapered down from 4mg 3x per day... Went cold turkey off the Xanax once... Worst night of my life!!!! Never doing that again don't worry!!!
 
Welcome to Bluelight Pillstacka. Sounds like you do need to tapper off the benzo's instead of stopping them outright. So please visit Basic Drug Discussion and The Dark Side for the right ways to do this. I am glad you are here seeking help. Help is here and we are definietly able to help you as long as you are honestly willing and seeking help. Welcome to Bluelight.
 
Benzo and Alcohol Withdraws can cause death.
A Teper system HAS to be implimented in order to get off these safely.

Benzo withdraw even minor withdraw can cause server seizures.
and if you are driving a car or even walking on pavement this could end fatally.

Be smart, safe, and EDUCATE YOURSELF Forums are just Opinions and Copy/pastes of Wiki half the time.
Learn about these drugs, what they do how they affect the brain's receptors, then you can make a semi-educated decision without consulting a doctor.
 
I'm so in this boat with you, it's my 2nd Day of Cold-Turkey..... and im not sure if i'm able to make it, I feel so bad right now, i'm crying for no reason, chills, vomiting, having crazy thoughts, been in the bed for 2 days..... any help to get me thru this is appreciated... my intake was 75mg perks a day, on my last day i took 50mg.....
 
Hey dude just wanted to say it might be hard to find a sympathetic doctor but I promise they're out there, most started the dr path hoping they can help ppl in any way they can. this is quite unconventional but how about writing yours a letter of what you're going through? Short n sweet is fine. I kno I have a hard time spitting it out when I'm in the brightly lit doctor's office but he can't help you if he doesn't kno what's wrong, Amirite?

A doctor should know chemical dependency is a medical concern, not a character flaw. Good luck!
 
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