balletgirl
Greenlighter
Hello,I'm new,although I have been looking about and around other posts and the site for about a month or so.I am from eastern Canada and I have,had been an addict for almost 20 years.I have used pretty much every drug at some point and had been addicted for long periods to crystal meth,weed alcohol,crack,ketamine,and IV coke but more so opiates towards the end.
I slammed dillies for 6,7 years and have been on methadone,very successful for a year and a half.However the last few months I have been obsessed with daydreams and dreams of shooting up.I am also on quite a number of perscription meds for epilepsy,severe and psychotic bipolar,ADHD and a few mood stabilizers.I know I am as addicted to the opiates as I am the needles.Anyway that's where I am right now.
I feel very close to a relapse but the only thing that is saving me is my love of art;I write,paint,and draw for hours a day and am on the computer hours a day.Even though I spend hours on the computer I have never been in a chat room or been in a site like this(where I could get other peoples responses)
Anyway so long for a short introduction.I am pretty much already in a relapse,I am just not sure with what.I see a doctor once a month to get my methadone refill(no piss tests) and go to the pharmacy 2x a week so it would be easy.I figure if I'm going to I might as well do it with what I really want to-IV dillie(s).Hell a couple of times won't hurt and my mom has them and they'd be easy to steal.Hell.it.ll be my christmas present to myself!
I slammed dillies for 6,7 years and have been on methadone,very successful for a year and a half.However the last few months I have been obsessed with daydreams and dreams of shooting up.I am also on quite a number of perscription meds for epilepsy,severe and psychotic bipolar,ADHD and a few mood stabilizers.I know I am as addicted to the opiates as I am the needles.Anyway that's where I am right now.
I feel very close to a relapse but the only thing that is saving me is my love of art;I write,paint,and draw for hours a day and am on the computer hours a day.Even though I spend hours on the computer I have never been in a chat room or been in a site like this(where I could get other peoples responses)
Anyway so long for a short introduction.I am pretty much already in a relapse,I am just not sure with what.I see a doctor once a month to get my methadone refill(no piss tests) and go to the pharmacy 2x a week so it would be easy.I figure if I'm going to I might as well do it with what I really want to-IV dillie(s).Hell a couple of times won't hurt and my mom has them and they'd be easy to steal.Hell.it.ll be my christmas present to myself!
