GlennS1956
Greenlighter
Finally de-lurking. I am a life-long long-haired hippie. I graduated High School in 1974, and spent my teenage years watching the Vietnam War on TV, and going to funerals of the Vietnam Vets who went before us. Back then we figured that if our government was going to kill us over a useless war, we might as well party in the meantime. And party, we did. Luckily, Tricky Dick Nixon stopped the draft before I turned 18, and I didn't have to go to war.
My Drug of Choice was, and always has been "All of the above", and "everything known to mankind". I went to a 30 day rehab in 1991, and stayed clean until 2003 with the help of Narcotics Anonymous. I've been to thousands of meetings. I hope to never go to another one, because the thought of being immersed in the repetition of those slogans again would drive me nuts.
At 56 years of age, I am once again sick and tired of being sick and tired. For the past few years my addiction has focused almost exclusively on snorting mass quantities of whatever opiates were available. Now that I have retired, the money isn't there to keep up with my addiction, and I have numerous physical disabilities that keep me from getting another job. I am sick to death of living the life of an addict, and now I can't afford it, either.
I have been stashing 10 mg methadone pills and suboxone for the last few months, knowing that the time to quit was approaching. Today is the third day that I have taken 20 mg of methadone. To my surprise, I have hardly any physical withdrawals at all, though my brain is still trying to convince me to go back out. Opiates are easily available where I live. I have studied methadone on the web, and I am afraid to get hooked on it, because the withdrawals seem to be worse than the opiate withdrawals themselves. I'm going to try not to do more than 20 mg/day, and want to cut down to 10 mg/day as soon as possible if I can.
Thanks for welcoming me to the group.
My Drug of Choice was, and always has been "All of the above", and "everything known to mankind". I went to a 30 day rehab in 1991, and stayed clean until 2003 with the help of Narcotics Anonymous. I've been to thousands of meetings. I hope to never go to another one, because the thought of being immersed in the repetition of those slogans again would drive me nuts.
At 56 years of age, I am once again sick and tired of being sick and tired. For the past few years my addiction has focused almost exclusively on snorting mass quantities of whatever opiates were available. Now that I have retired, the money isn't there to keep up with my addiction, and I have numerous physical disabilities that keep me from getting another job. I am sick to death of living the life of an addict, and now I can't afford it, either.
I have been stashing 10 mg methadone pills and suboxone for the last few months, knowing that the time to quit was approaching. Today is the third day that I have taken 20 mg of methadone. To my surprise, I have hardly any physical withdrawals at all, though my brain is still trying to convince me to go back out. Opiates are easily available where I live. I have studied methadone on the web, and I am afraid to get hooked on it, because the withdrawals seem to be worse than the opiate withdrawals themselves. I'm going to try not to do more than 20 mg/day, and want to cut down to 10 mg/day as soon as possible if I can.
Thanks for welcoming me to the group.
As Zoeylynn has said, I think you'll find TDS to be a great forum to help with your recovery. Also, thanks for the great intro and background. It's always interesting to hear other people's stories. I hope to read more from you around the board. All the best with your recovery. 