TheSheExperiment
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Hi there,
After reading the forum guidelines for posting an introduction, I'm a little conflicted on how to introduce myself and how to explain why I'm here...
I'm a twenty-seven year old female in California, and basically, I ended up inadvertently being raised as a test subject with regard to psychotropic drugs. At age seven I was diagnosed with childhood depression and put on Zoloft. At age nine, I was put on Ritalin. If only I had known at the time that Ritalin is almost molecularly identical to cocaine... By age twelve, I was being prescribed massive amounts of prescription amphetamines for the supposed purpose of treating my depression, counteracting fatigue from massive dosages of benzodiazepines, and for a supposed diagnosis of ADD. I was first put on Klonopin/clonazepam when I was only eleven years old. By age fifteen, I had been subjected to pretty much every type of prescribed psychotropic drug that existed. My family and myself had no idea that I was using legal, lab created versions of street drugs. Eventually I got into trouble for smoking pot and ended up being one of the "screwed up kids." Marijuana was in no way a gateway drug though - prescription Desoxyn (methamphetamine sulfate) and Dilaudid (hydromorphone) were, which were prescribed to me by doctors in my youngest of teen years as "last resort options," or "experiments" in getting a non-responsive mood disorder to "respond." Basically, they just wanted to see what sort of highs they could instigate in me - which ones might, "fix," me, which ones could keep me in a tranquilized stupor yet permitting me and stimulating me to function fully and normally in society - "success," was based on whichever/whoever doctor came up with the right, "cocktail." Hence, no one ever "succeeded." Eventually I ended up going through electro-convulsive therapy at age sixteen, (having six treatments - which I opted for because I was tired of taking their medications) and the had eight more maintenance treatments at twenty-two. Shortly after this time, I started seeing a psychiatrist who attempted to prescribe me intravenous amitol for sleep (a barbiturate and anesthetic) - I was given a liter of chloral hydrate (a sedative and anesthetic used by dentists in the late 1800s) instead as the pharmacist wouldn't dispense an IV drug. The same doctor soon put me on Suboxone as well, despite me not having had an opiate drug problem. It took a year to get off of it and recover... In the more recent years, I was a patient in "group b" at UC Davis' neuroscience and behavioral health FDA approval experiment for the current TMS machine (transcranial magnetic stimulation). I've been given thousands of different drugs in an attempt to cure my non-responsive major depression recurrent, generalized anxiety disorder and panic disorder. Essentially, I was guinea pigged by dozens of doctors eager to experiment with different psychiatric medications and procedures from the time I was a small child. There are many people I'd like to sue. I suffered from methamphetamine addiction at one point in my twenties and I entirely blame the doctors who predisposed me to stimulants in my early teen years. At this point, I am doing well in my life. I still take a lot of prescribed medication, but am no longer a victim of experimentation. Although this biography is probably disturbing, I felt that describing my background was necessary. With every prescription I ever received, I spent hours researching the substance and have ended up with a huge internal library of thorough information on psychotropic substances, including those that aren't prescribed (thanks mostly to the Erowid Vaults' extensive articles and collections of research).
I joined this forum because I have heard over the years, and have more recently been curious about, the manipulation of prescription drugs. I hear of people smoking and injecting prescription medication, which is entirely foreign to me. I've just developed a curiosity as to how the procedures work and why people would prefer to manipulate the intake of pills instead of just swallowing them. I have no intention of abusing any medication or doing anything illegal - I am just curious about the pharmokinetics and mechanisms of the drugs I was prescribed so often throughout my life with next to no knowledge of at all at first, and now excessive amounts of knowledge - yet no knowledge in regard to the possible methods of physical consumption and intake. At this point, I would say I understand all of the major psychotropic drug classes thoroughly - as well as having a thorough self-education on most all psychotropic drugs (thanks to hours and hours spent reading the DSM-IV, PDR, Wikipedia, and the Erowid Vaults). What I don't understand or know about is the concept of smoking or injecting pills, and I joined this forum because I want to broaden my self-education in pharmacology - specifically with interest in the usage of medications and drugs in a non-oral intake manner. I have heard of separating substances with filters, acetone and alcohol - how does this work? What is the procedure for this? These are my curiosities... I also decided to join this forum after reading a bunch of threads that interested me on a number of different topics that I found intriguing. I'd like to join in the conversation.
Thanks for having me,
--TheSheExperiment
After reading the forum guidelines for posting an introduction, I'm a little conflicted on how to introduce myself and how to explain why I'm here...
I'm a twenty-seven year old female in California, and basically, I ended up inadvertently being raised as a test subject with regard to psychotropic drugs. At age seven I was diagnosed with childhood depression and put on Zoloft. At age nine, I was put on Ritalin. If only I had known at the time that Ritalin is almost molecularly identical to cocaine... By age twelve, I was being prescribed massive amounts of prescription amphetamines for the supposed purpose of treating my depression, counteracting fatigue from massive dosages of benzodiazepines, and for a supposed diagnosis of ADD. I was first put on Klonopin/clonazepam when I was only eleven years old. By age fifteen, I had been subjected to pretty much every type of prescribed psychotropic drug that existed. My family and myself had no idea that I was using legal, lab created versions of street drugs. Eventually I got into trouble for smoking pot and ended up being one of the "screwed up kids." Marijuana was in no way a gateway drug though - prescription Desoxyn (methamphetamine sulfate) and Dilaudid (hydromorphone) were, which were prescribed to me by doctors in my youngest of teen years as "last resort options," or "experiments" in getting a non-responsive mood disorder to "respond." Basically, they just wanted to see what sort of highs they could instigate in me - which ones might, "fix," me, which ones could keep me in a tranquilized stupor yet permitting me and stimulating me to function fully and normally in society - "success," was based on whichever/whoever doctor came up with the right, "cocktail." Hence, no one ever "succeeded." Eventually I ended up going through electro-convulsive therapy at age sixteen, (having six treatments - which I opted for because I was tired of taking their medications) and the had eight more maintenance treatments at twenty-two. Shortly after this time, I started seeing a psychiatrist who attempted to prescribe me intravenous amitol for sleep (a barbiturate and anesthetic) - I was given a liter of chloral hydrate (a sedative and anesthetic used by dentists in the late 1800s) instead as the pharmacist wouldn't dispense an IV drug. The same doctor soon put me on Suboxone as well, despite me not having had an opiate drug problem. It took a year to get off of it and recover... In the more recent years, I was a patient in "group b" at UC Davis' neuroscience and behavioral health FDA approval experiment for the current TMS machine (transcranial magnetic stimulation). I've been given thousands of different drugs in an attempt to cure my non-responsive major depression recurrent, generalized anxiety disorder and panic disorder. Essentially, I was guinea pigged by dozens of doctors eager to experiment with different psychiatric medications and procedures from the time I was a small child. There are many people I'd like to sue. I suffered from methamphetamine addiction at one point in my twenties and I entirely blame the doctors who predisposed me to stimulants in my early teen years. At this point, I am doing well in my life. I still take a lot of prescribed medication, but am no longer a victim of experimentation. Although this biography is probably disturbing, I felt that describing my background was necessary. With every prescription I ever received, I spent hours researching the substance and have ended up with a huge internal library of thorough information on psychotropic substances, including those that aren't prescribed (thanks mostly to the Erowid Vaults' extensive articles and collections of research).
I joined this forum because I have heard over the years, and have more recently been curious about, the manipulation of prescription drugs. I hear of people smoking and injecting prescription medication, which is entirely foreign to me. I've just developed a curiosity as to how the procedures work and why people would prefer to manipulate the intake of pills instead of just swallowing them. I have no intention of abusing any medication or doing anything illegal - I am just curious about the pharmokinetics and mechanisms of the drugs I was prescribed so often throughout my life with next to no knowledge of at all at first, and now excessive amounts of knowledge - yet no knowledge in regard to the possible methods of physical consumption and intake. At this point, I would say I understand all of the major psychotropic drug classes thoroughly - as well as having a thorough self-education on most all psychotropic drugs (thanks to hours and hours spent reading the DSM-IV, PDR, Wikipedia, and the Erowid Vaults). What I don't understand or know about is the concept of smoking or injecting pills, and I joined this forum because I want to broaden my self-education in pharmacology - specifically with interest in the usage of medications and drugs in a non-oral intake manner. I have heard of separating substances with filters, acetone and alcohol - how does this work? What is the procedure for this? These are my curiosities... I also decided to join this forum after reading a bunch of threads that interested me on a number of different topics that I found intriguing. I'd like to join in the conversation.
Thanks for having me,
--TheSheExperiment
I can understand why you needed to open up in your thread and I am sure other people will like to get to know you! 
